my fairytale ending

2007-06-03T14:42:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

just for fun, i used so much time to do it... (:

2006-12-31T17:38:00.002+08:00

so ugly.

woo~ long time never post le. i think my msn go crazy. i think people cannot see me online. haha. sometimes also good la. get some peace once in awhile.

these few weeks. alot of things happen la. both happy and sad. one very happy thing that happened today was my amath! wahaha. shant say how much i got. later people say i hao lian. but if you want to know, can come and ask me face to face. (:

but. the rest of my diagnostic tests not much better. i dont want to post everything out, later i feel so sad looking at them ):

nowadays quite busy with council stuff. have to settle a lot of things. got events coming up. sigh. and now dance is cancelled for weekdays. changed to saturdays instead. i dont know how i feel about this, but i most certainly hope i would be able to finish all my homework on time, if not all the teachers would start complaining. i dont want to end up in detention. >.<

id better start bucking up. no more slacking and less fooling around.

2006-12-31T17:38:00.001+08:00

silly.

sometimes i think im being really silly. when my com just started just now, i was staring at my desktop wallpaper. then tears started to well up in my eyes. i also dont know why. i was thinking that in that picture, everyone in the class looked so happy together. then i thought of cheering comp, our actual performance. then felt really touched.

i also dont know why sometimes i make a mountain out of a molehill, especially with you. im sorry. but i just cant help it. i have no idea why. maybe its just that i am too in touch with my emotions. =X

now im sec4 le. dont really feel like im sec4 ; or as if there's any difference at all. i just feel the same. maybe the pressure hasnt started to mount yet. perhaps in a few months it will.

i dont like the impression that a lot of people have of me -which is that im big-mouthed. sigh. suan le. secondary school life is almost over. i shall not waste my time in trying to change their impressions of me. thats why i feel the first impression is very important. ive talked about the first impression ALOT of times le, so i shall not bore you all with it again =P

sec1 orientation was... GREAT! haha. well, there were mistakes committed, but thankfully everything was dealt with in the end. heh heh. i guess im not such a bad OIC after all! =P the funny thing is, alot of sec ones took my email from me. but none added me. who knows what they doing with it. -_-

ah~ diagnostic tests ah. haven finish yet. but i think im going to fail all my sciences. >.<

i dont know if having a bf makes you drift apart from your friends
or if being busier means you have less time for your friends
but one thing is for sure, is that i dont want to lose you guys.

silly silly silly.
im thinking too much again >.<

2006-12-31T17:38:00.000+08:00

01012007

ahh. its the new year again. seems like one year has really gone reaaaaaaaaaaaaally fast. especially this year. sec3 year. but it's been a blast. (:

new year resolutions? ;)
1. study real hard and get 6 points for 'O' levels
2. be a really good... girlfriend, friend, senior, councillor, dancer, student, daughter, etc
3. enjoy my life

okay la, my resolutions abit lan. haha. but never mind, they should be okay to accomplish. i dont want to set too high targets. later cannot achieve then very sad. ok. then i go change something.

new year resolutions? ;)
1. study real hard and get 6 less than 10 points for 'O' levels
2. be a really good... girlfriend, friend, senior, councillor, dancer, student, daughter, etc
3. enjoy my life

lol. okay. now should be more achievable le. =D ive been going on a shopping craze this few weeks. haha. been shopping for clothes, and shopping for people's presents. *hinthint* i just bought a brown colour top. the price is... secret. haha. next time upload the pic then let you all guess how much it costs. haha. let's just say its a very good investment indeed! =P

ahh. school re-opening in 2 more days! going to die liao. still got homework haven finish yet. quite alot. physics, chem and amath. maybe i'll not do them at all. heh heh heh. good idea. i shall not do them. haha. aiyah. cannot. i must be a good student. must do homework. T_T lucky i have the first 3 days off. hope teacher doesnt give alot of tests during first 3 days. cuz im planning on studying on the sunday. not today, of course. duh. next sunday.

hope that orientation will go on smoothly also. sure there'll be some hitches here and there, but here's me hoping that it'll all be solved in the end. (: and i hope that the orientation will be a good one for the sec ones this year.

next year we are the most senior le! well, except for 5A la. -_- but nvm, still very senior. hope next year sec3 won act dao. act dao i bash you up. i hate juniors who act dao. *arggggh* you may be sec3 but you're still more junior than me. heck care you. whahahaha. i know i very evil, but thats me! =X

tommorow going out with 6A1 people. OOO. longlong time never see all of them le. whahaha. wonder how all of them are? lol. i'll get to know tommorow! confirm will take neoprints with jolene and serene de. wahahhha. prepare extra money. hehehe. going movie and steamboat with them. should be nice! =D

i hope that the year 2007 will be a VERYVERYVERY nice year. cuz also o levels, then sure very stressed up. but also must enjoy while we can. so... off to party!

2006-12-16T14:39:00.000+08:00

MR LOH.

okay. i know its a long time since i posted, sorry for the delay, ive just been really busy or ive just been too lazy to post. forgive me >.<

and i had a hard time trying to sign in to my bloggerbeta just now. i forgot my password =X

hmm. anyone can guess the reason for me posting today? actually i didnt even want to post. but i saw something that gave me the feeling to post about it. this is it :

Dear 4T1 & 4M1 of 2007
Thanks for being such wonderful students; I really had fun teaching you all for the past year. I supposed by now you should have heard that I would not be around next yr to teach you Physics.Sorry I am not able to inform you personally. Please continue to work hard for the subject. Take care and be good. Have a Merry Christmas and best wishes to all your endeavours in 2007.Will definitely miss you guys and do keep in touch always! RegardsBoon Haur

P.S:
1. Please pass the msg to your friends to download the assignment as they will be taken down after 31st Dec.
2. For the toy project, you may want to email me your project for assessment. I will award a small token of encouragement for the best 5 projects among the two classes.

ah... mr loh!!! you're a really very good teacher. why did you have to leave...? we would all miss you. very very much. and i feel you are really one teacher who cares alot for us. thank you very very much =D

i like to fa pi qi. so?

2006-11-19T19:44:00.000+08:00

hey.

okay. i shall post about chalet. haha. even though it was 5 days ago, can still remember a bit bah. =P
people who were there:

1. yufen
2. fangyee
3. xinying
[stay for bbq only]
4. weini
5. judith
6. gerald
[stay one night]
7. ME =D
8. wenjie
9. ghanyean
10. soonbeng
11. nigel
12. yishun
13. jianhui
14. shawn
15. meh

DAY ONE 14112006

met WENJIE , then saw GHANYEAN NIGEL outside mac. sat down with them. joined by SOONBENG a few minutes later. after finishing buying things, JIANHUI came. then YISHUN. then had to run off first cuz had to sign in. but actually no difference, cuz when we reached there CHUANWEN haven come yet. then me and WENJIE went to sign in and check the stuff first. ask the rest to stay there in case got anything dont have. then they very naughty go and take the bus. in the end they got lost. LOL. damn funny la. see one big group of people walking with a lot of things. lol.
then go there. immediately start playing mahjong. lol. play till forget got bbq. haha. then i so good lor. i am the only girl who went outside to cook. the 5 sit inside play mahjong. wah. i so ku ming~ haha. no la. i go out smear butter only. slack job. lol.
oh ya. wah piang. KAIWEI and SIYING ps us. T_T very evil lor. WEINI and JUDITH and i so lonely. LOL.
then eat eat talk talk. then... i forgot what happened le. oh i think is we lun liu play mahjong. then finally i got to bath. wah. shiok la. haha. from dirty become clean. then... they go walk walk. say want to go changi hospital, so i dont wana go. then stay in to play mahjong. in the end they never go. -_-
then... at night. went to sleep abit first. cuz a bit tired. then wake up le talk cock in a room together. haha. very fun. see MEH's face so red. some of them "drunk" le. haha.
then... go sleep again.

DAYTWO15112006
woke up at dont know what time. intially was to go eat breakfast with everyone, but started playing mahjong and the addiction kicked in. then JUDITH left. then i very tired again. then go in lie down. then sleep for 3 hours. sleep till so shuang. then WENJIE come in and wake me up. walao.. can continue sleep somemore de lor. then wake up. saw that WEINI missing liao. sorry WEINI never say bye to you ):
then GHANYEAN WENJIE and i went changi village eat brunch. lol. i ate nasi lemak. very nice (:
then the 3 of us went to loan bicycle. then cycle to pasir ris there. wah. cycle till all 3 of our butts sore. LOL. cycle there a bit tiring, but coming back that time was DAMN shiok. cuz alot of downhill. then can feel the wind swishing past. haha. very fun.
then return to chalet, continue to play chalet. then ordered pizza at night.
the 3 of us went to return bicycle. then come back that time the route very scary.
then go bathe (:
then... i very stupid. in my memory, i didnt lock the door, but somehow, door4 was locked from the inside and the keys were inside. then had to wait for the person to come and unlock.
then i very sad T_T
GHANYEAN brought his jacket out. i wore it, and it covered me like a dress. then i ran into the guys' room, to borrow a belt. haha. then just nice the person come. actually wana go out the de. then WENJIE say i cannot go out liddat, later the person chuatio. haha. cuz the jacket wear le abit short.

then went to walk walk. saw transvestites. o.o we ended up in the park, playing truth or dare. haha. very fun (:
then walked back to chalet. very scary.
then slept...

DAYTHREE16112006
WENJIE and i left early in the morning, cuz got meeting later on. left the guys to check out.

and that is the end on our friends' chalet! haha. very fun!!! =D next year must have one again (:

2006-11-11T21:00:00.000+08:00

hehe. found this at weini's blog. very funny. how true!

yihfang --
[noun]:

A person who is constantly high

'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

2006-11-07T22:13:00.000+08:00

haha. found this on weini's blog. this should be fun! and short too! soo... here goes!

Type ur reactions when somebody say these phrases to u.

WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?
huh? like what? wo na li de zui ni le? 0.o

I JUST REALIZED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU?
if i don like that person i would say: eh. err. thanks. sorry i gtg.
if i like that person i would say: ohhh.. really? actually.. *confesses* LOL.

LEAVE HIM/HER ALREADY. YOULL BE MUCH MORE HAPPY WITH ME
i dont think so. you are such a jerk. *bash*

COME ON. SMILE. YOU'RE CUTE WHEN YOU DO THAT
hehehehe. i KNOW. LOL. dont vomit people.

PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO
huh? eh. we trade la. how?

I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE YOU.
im blessed to have you too (:

WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY?
erm. cuz.. cuz.. *aha* M comes before T!

I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN PARK CONCERT. WANNA COME WITH ME?
free ah? okay lor. haha =D

YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW THAT?
thanks(: you are one too

I THINK IM FALLING FOR YOU.
dont fall! i help you up. we cant be in love with you falling down right? (:

I CANT SMILE WITHOUT YOU
aiyah don bluff la. i not your face muscles. come, i help you smile (:

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, BUT YOU JUST ARENT HIM/HER
*cries*

WHATS YOUR MOBILE NUMBER?
i dont have a hp, sorry.

CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE?
sure!

MAY I ESCORT YOU?
okay!

DO YOU STILL LOVE HIM/HER TILL NOW
yes, i do.

YOU WERE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING THAT I WANTED
want-ed? means you no longer want me?

WHEN WILL I GET YOUR SWEET EYES
you're not going to get my eyes. not going to let you tear my eyes from their sockets. no no no~~~ *flees*

okay lah. this one quite fun. hahahha. thats all! (:

2006-11-05T21:42:00.000+08:00

from weini blog who took it from huahui blog;

1. Where do you hang your towel to dry after showering? i dont hang them. just throw them into the washing machine.

2. What kind of mouse pad do you have? no mouse pad. i dont like the feeling of it

3. Do you brush your hair with a comb or a brush? both. comb when my hair is wet, and brush when my hair is dry

4. From your opinion, who do you think is the hottest celeberity? eh. no idea.

5. You got a project due tomorrow, do you use tape or glue? huh? catch no ball

6. Chicken or pork? eh. anything la.

7. By the time you get to school/work, is the sky still dark? nah

8. If you had a choice to see a unicorn or mermaid which would it be? mermaid! cuz she can talk to me (:

9. What was in your bag the last time you went out? didnt bring a bag. just stuffed everything into my pocket

10. What time does the sun usually set? err. 6 30?

11. What do you think of last before you go to sleep? how to get to sleep

12. AC or fan? aircon!

13. Do you wear braces? no. i know my teeth not very nice. but i dont like people who say to me "why dont you have braces?" kill you =x

14. Can you hand stand? YEA! but not without mr khoo, our gym teacher. haha

15. If you were the opposite sex, how would you style your hair? eh. i don wana be a guy. haha

16. What level math are you in? sec3 math

17. Jessica Simpson or Alba? alba. simpson's like an airhead.

18. Which subject is worst, English or Math? definitely math
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19. What's one thing you really want to do this very moment? cure my flu. im having one now.

20. After buying something, do you automatically throw it away? never.

21. CD player or iPod? ipod

2. Would you rather spin upside down goin 30 miles or drop 400 ft. into water? neither. im a scaredy cat =P

24. What you got planned for the weekend? i think it means next weekend. pack for chalet! (:

25. Have you ever gone ice skating? yeah! but long time never skate le.

26. If you were put in a room with nothing except for a pencil and paper what would you do? at first draw. then draw finish nothing to do so tear the paper up and break the pencil. LOL.

27. Is it always easy finding your remote everytime you want to watch TV? yes

28. How was your day? fun!

29. Do you grow your nails, bite or cut them? i grow till a certain length.. then cut

this quiz is getting a little boring...

30. Describe your handwriting. messy, untidy, ugly. T_T

31. Do you consider yourself a stalker? 0.o no.

32. Do you bruise easily? yeah, very easily. even when i exert pressure slightly, my knees will be bruised.

33. There's nothing on TV except Barney and Japanese news what do you watch? barney lor.

34. Do you know more than 3 friendster codes? lol. don think so.

35. You got an essay due, you either can type or write in pen, which will it be? type lar. write waste my time.

36. Do you wear jeans to relax at home? eh. sometimes.

37. Describe yourself using one word: girl

38. Do you think bestfriends make the best lovers? depends on how the relationship is, but im perfectly fine with it =D

39. Do you like ice in your drink? yes. as cold as possible.

40. Do you have abs? hmm. not sure if it counts. haha.

41.What is the best nickname that u ever had? ONESQUARE!!!

42.Do you think suicide is the best way? i dont like to think about dying

43.Do you wanna get married? yes (:

4.Do you think money is everything? hmmm. not quite

45.Have you writen your own song? yea!

46.What movie did you last watch? tallegada nights

47.What are you going to do today/tomorrow? slack?

48.Do you believe in love forever? a little

49.What is in your mind rite now? boring...

50.What song is in your mind rite now? budebuai

okay. finish le. lol. byebye~

2006-11-05T21:12:00.000+08:00

yo

loooooong time never post le. haha. okay. eh. actually not much to say la. my life has been kinda peaceful? smooth-sailing lor. not much ups and downs. the leadership course was very fun. yah. turns out that i overextimated myself. by ALOT. haha. now must be more qian xu liao.

MR IAN TAN is very good! (: haha. and playing the pail game under the sun made me think of the days in NACLI. speaking of which, they are going to NACLI tommorow! hope the sec2s + the CCAC have a great time there, its really fantastic! but not sure if the duration of the course would affect the bonding. haha.

anyway, celebrated WENJIE's birthday on the 3rd. but his actual brithday is on the 4th. please do not mistake. haha. well, hope he had a good SURPRISE! =D

i think, next time i can consider a few career choices.

1. actress
i seriously WANT to be an actress. but. [theres always a but aint it?] im... not... pretty enough. lol. thats the truth la. i admit it. but thats my dream career. =D

2. lawyer
hmmm. i can put the best of my talking abilities into good use right? besides, lawyers earn LOTS and LOTS of money. the only bad point is that you have to study for many years too ):

3. teacher
okayokay la. this is my childhood dream. LOL.

4. motivational speaker/trainer
haha. so cool eh? again, my abilities put to good use =D

5. sales
actually... dont want de. but alot of people say i can go into sales. -_- if i despo then i go lor. haha.

weini blog the thing very fun. shall do it later. haha. (:

2006-11-01T20:37:00.000+08:00

i just posted a damn long post. then all disappear. >.< sorry kaiwei. next time lo. (:

2006-10-26T21:37:00.000+08:00

tommorow...

today had dance rehearsal. very tired. >.< tommorow is actual performance le. really do hope i dance better than today. i really did damn badly today ah. everything that could happen happened. all the bad ones. argh.

hope i do not have a wardrobe malfunction tommorow. LOL. if not shawn needs cup noodles. LOL.

hope tommrow's cheering goes well also. so to show that we deserve the champion! =D

2006-10-20T20:26:00.000+08:00

fly

hey there. this two days have been to a leadership course, and again, met some new friends and learnt new things =D

bp cheer! haha. even though im in sec3 now, i still get the rush of adrenaline whenever i do BP cheer. i dont know why. haha. in fact, i get excited at the thought of doing any cheer =P

speaking of cheering, 3T1 is going to perform for campfire night! haha. but cuz im busy all this week, i havent been able to check on the progress of the class. sorry >.<

sigh. it is a little sad that school for 2006 is just going to end like that. sec3 year seems to have flown past in a flurry, without even giving me a full opportunity to appreciate what i have, or simply to realise the current situation. everything is just about chiong-ing, choing-ing, and more chiong-ing.

we were just talking about what BPGHS means to us, and many of us student leaders agreed that it was like a second home to us, a place where we sometimes show our true emotions, and leave our deepest imprints.

for me, sometimes i do spend more time at school than i do at home. not that im proud of it, haha. and in this particular school, ive had many feelings. whether up or down. ive felt sad, elated, confused, furious; ive cried, laughed, screamed, made a speech, and what-have-not in this school.

for me, BPGHS is a journey. a journey totally worth me to remember. at this school, ive met MANY people. many many many people. too many for me to mention every single one of them. ranging from people whom i know just by looks, and true friends close to my heart.

BPGHS will always be a stopping place in my heart, and my sec3 year especially. it will be a place for me to stop and rest, and think about the times i had when i cannot stand the stress anymore.

BPGHS, a school of leaders.

2006-10-17T21:08:00.002+08:00

post-~~natal~~exam

well, all i can say is tensions have been running high this week, including myself. =P

this two days have been collecting back our exam papers, and the hall is so hot. i caught a cold today also. no idea whether it is really a cold or just affected by the haze.

quite happy with my results bah. passed everything. haha. except physics, not known yet, cuz havent collected the sectionC. but hope i'll pass it too.

congratulations to WENJIE for becoming TC!!! i knew you could do it =D

today was the rehearsal for graduation. overall was quite well done i think. kudos to bangrah dancers! (:

school ending soon le. dont know why, but i dont seem to harbour much feelings =x better enjoy holidays as well as i can, O LEVELS coming soon. >.<

shake your body
shake she's moving

2006-10-11T20:13:00.000+08:00

ahhh.

okay okay. i admit i havent been posting for a really long time. pardon me, just been busy with homework and other things as well to come online and post.

well, exams finaly over le. WHEE~ time to play! sadly no, teachers will still be continuing with their teaching, cuz we dont have forward track this year. its both good and bad i suppose. good is that our holidays would be more free, bad is that this few weeks left and the whole of next year would be like a mad rush. which, i do not like. im not in a position to speak however, who asked the school to go on PRIME during our 'O' level year. =x

this year's flown by in a past. it seemed not long ago since i was lamenting about the loss of 01-inverses. but a year has gone, not much harm done to me eh? haha.

exams are over, we each know how well(or ill)-prepared we were. all we can do now is cross our fingers and hope for the best. (:

2006-09-08T22:36:00.000+08:00

coping well ;

almost the end of september holidays le! HAHA. so high today (:

went to orchard on thursday. though didnt buy anything, had a VERY ENJOYABLE time. (;

dance was slacky. haha. went to do gymnastics. now can do a lot more!

then went to do lit project at WENJIE's house with GHANYEAN. so lame. -_- didnt finish, then go bpp bowl with SHAWN and SOONBENG.

i know i know, i hate those girls who solely hangs out with a group of guys, and yet im being one myself. i felt really weird at first, then after that just keep quiet. lol. then solve the problem liao. haiyah. but still very weird. next time dont want le =X but very happy! i scored over 100 points today! hahahahhahaa. well, its 101, but nvm. im happy enough le (:

chiong chiong chiong homework!!!

2006-09-06T21:30:00.000+08:00

EMATH SUCKS. >.<

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i officially state that i hate, detest, loathe, am angry, pissed off, infuriated, upset by the stupid subject of ELEMENTARY MATHEMATICS.

i dislike the teacher too. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. you may think im a nut, but i prefer AMATH to EMATH. at least the teacher is better. no offence, but i really dont like his teaching methods, or perhaps its his attitude. or is it the whole class's attitude towards him?

no matter what, still hate emath.

i hate myself actually. why am i so incapable? im going to fail both emath and chem. two subjects which people usually excel at. i am an idiot.

FIVE WORDS TO DESCRIBE ME.

I-D-I-O-T

so pissed with myself.

2006-09-05T21:06:00.000+08:00

chill.

ah. this september holiday is equivalent to no holiday at all. i seem to have something on everyday, and three projects to do! completely head over heels. then still have three days of dance somemore, want to finish homework also cannot. >.<

i remember thinking about some interesting topics today, but somehow im not able to recall them now. haiyoh, my memory seems to be getting worse.

have you ever wondered if there was someone in this world who looked somewhat like you? or somebody who's voice sounds like yours, or even as simple as someone who's thinking the same thing as you?

well, i think its quite cool and at the same time, a little freaky.

i wonder, why actresses and models and what-nots, even normal people, have to go for plastic surgery. i mean, i KNOW that looks are important, but if you were not blessed with good looks, and you have the money, you just change it with surgery? call me lao kok kok if you want, but i dont think i'll ever do such a thing. even though i also dont have natural beauty. haha. but i think we must accept ourselves for what we are, no matter how much we dont like it.

imagine if there was no such surgery invented, then nobody would ever think of this right?

im just crapping. =P bye.

2006-09-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

jlc ;

i am a pig! slept till 12 noon today. haha.

then yufen came my house to watch THE JOY LUCK CLUB. watched finish the entire story. yufen was like stoned. LOL. then went my room and chat chat chat till 7 plus. then took photos! whahahah. my favourite pastime. YUFEN you must upload okay? haha. if not i will bevery sad ):

second day of hols le! hope my homework doesn't rust in these 9 days. but, the sad thing is, i dont want them to rust, but they MAY rust cuz im so busy these hols. i have something on every single day. >.<

AHH. YUFEN just msged me, say the photos all gone. WAH SAD AH T_T i go cry liao. lol. nvm. next time take MORE! haha.

i love phototaking (:

2006-09-01T21:27:00.000+08:00

chemistry

in case you are thinking academically, it's not. i really think in some things you do as a pair or group, you have to have chemistry. then, everything will work out. haha.

went for badminton today. they say good times pass fast, and 3 hours went past in a flurry. then played with him for doubles. got chemistry! haha. then fun lor. =D

crapped and played around quite awhile, me and huimin won ourselves drinks. *beams* nvm, next time im sure weini and enlin will win us de. this time only lucky. next time i must bring more money. LOL.

okay, the following is only in my opinion lar. you can ignore this if you want, but i feel i have improved in my bad! whahaha. even though still cannot be considered good, at least got improvement mah! HAHA. must be now i run around more. like crazy liddat. oh yah, mus kick my bad habit [no pun intended, but if you dont get it, nvm] of trying to use my hand to catch the shuttleCOCK with my hand. haha.

our dearest mr VINCENTLEE was there also. but he so stingy, dont want pay for us =P or maybe is cuz he really no money with him. haha.

ate lunch, went jasmine's house watch anime awhile, then go home.

then went swimming! around 7 plus, not alot of people left, so i went to sit the slide tower three times in a row! the last time i was singing. haha. i was the only person there. so fun! haha.

i think chemistry is important amongst friends also. the power of being able to guess what your friend is going to say is great. haha. or maybe you just know them better. (:

p.s. get well soon (:

2006-08-31T21:00:00.000+08:00

teachers' day

argh. my post just disappeared. shall just summarise.

anyway, went back to grps today, had alot of fun.

crapped at pizza hut till 6 plus, then went home.

ironically, the thing you want to forget most may be the thing you ponder about most.
the more you try to remind yourself to forget, the more you are thinking of it. and when you are physically reminded of it, hurt strucks you. it's painful, but that's the cold hard truth.

THE END. stupid blogger. >.<

2006-08-30T21:40:00.000+08:00

RE-NEW

new blogskin again (: haha lame.

got progress report back le. well, surprise surprise! no failures. nearly had one- chem.

my best subject is lit, almost 80. then my worst subject is chem, just nice 50. LOL. difference of 30 marks. >.< at least my L1B5 improved, by 3 marks. still improvement lor. but my results still not very lixiang. far from what i should have.

we gave ROY a car today! a remote controlled one. then sang him "happy teachers' day" song. it's basically happy birthday with the lyrics changed. haha. but i could see his happiness. then felt so touched and happy, for the simple reason that ROY was happy. haha. =D

ROY rocks. (:

2006-08-24T21:54:00.000+08:00

monotonous

sometimes i feel im just doing the same thing everyday, always a routine. everyday, wake up, go to school, come home, and add in all the 'eat shit sleep'. maybe im too much of an organised person that i dont wish for my life to become topsy-turvy in any way.

but im not that neat a person, am i? [no, im not] >.<>bu shuang liao. hahas. now i must start being more guai and be more of a homebody. well, i'll try my best. =D

2006-08-19T21:48:00.000+08:00

HOME ;

im back from OBS! whee~

im in WATCH NINE, RAFFLES!!!

we originally had 15 people, but hidayat didnt go, so left with 14. and we are (according to the photo in my hand)
JAMES.TINGSHIEN.TIANKEE.KEITH.WILLIAM.JASON.JIAWEI.
YIHFANG.WEINI.DIYANA.FAIRUS.FANGHUI.JINGYAN.PEIYEE.

we're a really great bunch! hahas. love RAFFLES! im not going to say everything that happened, cuz its going to take a long long time, but im just going to say that i really had a wonderful time there. it started off well, and ended just as well. i tried several new things, such as kayaking, outdoor cooking etc.

miss JACKIE and BELINDA!!! they really rock man. they are absolutely awesome instructors!!!

wana go for watch outing! hahas. miss everyone already. this time if we were in ubin, we MAY be pitching our tents in the dark! LOL.

i think our watch people still very good no matter what. XD refuse to see the bad points. *always look on the bright side of life* hahas.

i still hate "well done" >.<
i wish you enough-

2006-08-11T20:52:00.000+08:00

lucky (:

today is my lucky day! i dont normally like to post what happens in detail in my everyday life, but today is just too good to be true.

in the morning, everything just breezed past smoothly.

then had a stream of teachers congratulating us on winning the cheering comp (: then very happy. hahas.

then after recess was slack period, then went for obs briefing.

can you believe it?!?! me and weini and jiawei actually got into the same watch!!! WATCH NINE! ROY was like reading the names, then when he reached weini's name, he actually misread her name as mine. you know why? cuz we got into the same watch, and apprently ROY was surprised that we could get into the same watch!!! FATE lar. then weini and i were like screaming our heads off. XD

then later found out that our watch got JIAWEI!!! so damn heng! wahahaha. 3 gang members in a group! the lucky stars are really shining on us. then we were off screaming again. i think mrs ee should have been quite pissed with us. LOL. but we were excited what. hahas.

so went back to class very happily, then saw my amaths results. and, i cant believ my eyes, i passed, and i passed with a very good grade![to me lah] i got 31!!! its like OH MY GOD to me. O.o elated.

met mrs wong to take pictures for elections, and my pics turned out quite nice also. =D

then went to eat lunch with weini swusan gekpeng, then they so kind accompany me go buy my contact lens solution. then sit there gossip gossip. hahas. so fun!

and therefore my day ended happily ever after.

this OBS thing proved to me that if some things were really meant to be, it would be, and you wouldnt need to do much to achieve it. i think this goes for many things is life today. whet will be will be, what will never be will never be. so i think sometimes, we must go according to how fate leads us, and not go against it all the time. what do you think?

which fate and metaphysical aid doth seem
to have thee ~~crowned~~ grouped withal ;
macbeth act1scene5

2006-08-09T16:58:00.000+08:00

DOUBLE-CHAMPIONS!!! =DDD

YAYY!!! 3T1ONENANO WON CHEERING COMP... PLUS BOTH BEST CHEERLEADERS!!! =D

wahahaha. so happy. not that im here to gloat, but im just really happy that our class won!!! in the morning, i was simply flustered and had lots of mixed feelings. we got into trouble with mr tan, then heard news that p2 were very very good. i was so worried before we went in!

i was still so edgy while i was in the backstage, but once i walked out onto the stage and into the glaring stage-lights and the warm applause, some inner force just took over, and i somehow got the courage to get through everything. i think we did really well, from the cheering after our performance. i was so elated!!!

then was so nervous while waiting, but relieved stress by singing national songs really loud with the class! that was the time i really felt the class was very united as one! then annouced results. best cheerleader; yihfang and siying from 3T1!!! =DDD both of us got best cheerleader!!! so happy and proud! hahas.

then our class got champion for upper sec also!!! so so so happy! hahas. i was like jumping up and down like crazy!!! hahas. and mr tan wasnt angry anymore. =DDD

so so happy lah!

then went for ice skating. FUNFUNFUN! hahas. maybe its because im in a very happy mood, thats why it was so fun. hahas. maybe the eight of us were closer after yesterday? LOL. really had a lot of fun.

happy birthday! to singapore and... YOU! cuz singapore's birthday is all our birthdays!!!

tommorow going to buy obs stuff. whee~

3T1ONENANO ROCKS!!! YAYY!

2006-08-07T21:09:00.000+08:00

cheering comp

tommorow is cheering comp!!! excited, but imvery nervous and a little scared. however, still anticipating it. from what i saw today, our class were pretty united, pretty neat, but loudness still must increase lah. but im very proud of our class, that most of them are willing to stay back till so late. even though we are new friends and all, but it really made my heart swell with pride.

also, this cheering comp really made me trust my classmates even more. i put all my trust in them, believing they will not let me down. literally. tommorow i will cheer my loudest, and i believe they would too. JIAYOU X3 people! we must try our best!!!! =D

2006-08-06T21:11:00.000+08:00

village

long time never post le wor =P

ct finally over le! woo~ i hope i can score better this time, i worked harder le! but havent got back any results yet, so dont know. hahas.

there is some dinner to celebrate national day ongoing at the court below my house now. i looked out just now, and i just got this feeling that bukit panjang is just like a small cosy village, and the feeling made me feel sort of warm and loved. wouldnt it be great if everywhere was like this? then there would be no enmity. but its impossible lah.

i was just doing this newspaper article on outer beauty, and i couldnt agree with the writer more. she said "the first impression is always made upon people's looks" and this is what ive been telling a lot of people for quite some time le. just felt some sort happy. hahas.

and what do you choose your partner by? their abilities, their looks? i think if you like a person, you would just like the person bah. i also dont really know what to say. so many things happened recently. both good and bad. these supernatural solicitings cannot be ill, cannot be good.

what's yours would be yours. what's not will never be. if you dont like someone, you should just tell him/her how you feel, and not toy with his/her feelings. [that's what you get after listening to too much 933. hahas. so sentimental liao (: ]

2006-07-29T21:52:00.000+08:00

selfish;

wahahaha. im finally posting today cuz my msn explorer is back to normal. woohoo!

last sunday was our dance comp, and it was at 10.20 PM. are your eyes popping out of your sockets? and we cant go to school late the next day too. i know you must be wanting to say. oh so sad. but never mind, it was a really GREAT experience as it was my first ever performance! cant say i wasnt nervous, but luckily i wasnt as nervous as expected. =P

we got out comments sheet this thurs. it said we had potential! XD and we even got 83/100! can you believe it? it's almost too good to be true. im so happy! hahas.

yesterday(friday) was speech day. i was actually more nervous this time! my heart was like beating so fast few minutes before. hahas. but it turned out fine. it all went by in a whizz though. dont really remember much, except for the photographer who took a zillion photos as i was posing at the sides(those who went, any recallations?). it was a fun experience with all the dancers though. im definitely sure im closer with them now. =D

next week is common test week! haven study yet! only did lit =X how? i dont want to fail this time round. i really dont. T_T must jiayou everyone! so fast sec3 year like going to be over liao. so fast. haiz. im going to miss everyone when i graduate. it's like, so sad. ;(

oh yah! about my post title, people are really kiasu and selfish. i was about to type singaporeans, but i myself am a singaporean, so i dont want to be suan-ing myself, and also cuz national day coming soon so i shouldnt talk bad about our nation.

anyway, i was on the lrt on friday. alone. so pitiful. hahas. okay out of point. then i was standing all the while. then at bp station, there was an empty seat. initially i was considering whether to sit down or not, cuz it was just beside me, and i was also very tired. but i saw a pregnant lady outside. so i thought, "just leave it, then let her sit". to my surprise and annoyance, one WOMAN. yes im using woman this crude term to describe her. she just plonked her ass onto the seat. even until the pregnant lady came in she still sat there firmly. initially i was considering whether to ask her to GET UP and give up her seat, but then i thought i was wearing school uniform so shouldnt make a scene.

then i think the pregnant lady stood for 1 or 2 stations before a middle-aged lady with a shopping cart gave up her seat. isnt this selfish! and all the rest of the people sitting down where just pretending they couldnt see anything! i was so mad lah! >.< how can liddat one, just sit there. so INCONSIDERATE. you selfish WOMAN.

okay lah, no point getting myself worked up over such people. ren zha. pui. hahas.

from now im going to TRY to be more quiet in class, i think teachers cant stand me liao. =P

CHIONG!!! X3

2006-07-22T23:11:00.000+08:00

LALALA

haix

im feeling so sian. competition is tommorow. and something really bad happened on friday practice. one of our dancers tripped on her own cloth, fell forwards on the school hall, and knocked her chin onto the floor.

it was such a horrifying scene, as blood was dripping from her chin. at first we all thought it was only a cut, or that it was her tooth. but after that, we realised that her skin had actually split open! i was lucky that i didnt see her wound, if not i think i would be even more scared. >.< just hope that she gets well soon, dont think too much. (:

tommorow is the competition le. dont know whether i'll be a little scared or not. just hope that everything will go smoothly. jiayou!

2006-07-20T21:25:00.000+08:00

well, B&B was quite fun. even though it wasnt VERY professional, i think it was well done overall. but i just didnt liek that people laughed at the wrong times. so.. i shall not comment. later people flame me. >.<

nowadays i VERY busy eh. dont even have time to go lot1 and eat lunch. so sad. ive spent the whole of last week and whole of this week eating at the school canteen, and staying back till late. haix. im worried. AH. hahas. competition this sunday. 10.20 pm. stupid right? then they expect us to report to school same time on monday. diao. so unfair lo.

i was nearly late today. huimin couldnt wake up. LOL. then took taxi at 7.10, reached school at 7.25. saw people still walking, then i chiong inside the school. HENG arh. hahas.

many a times i should have been late, but luckily ive always escaped. whew.

nothing much to comment le. im dead tired.

2006-07-18T20:30:00.001+08:00

B&B

tommorow going to watch beauty and the beast. hope it would be a good show. jiayou bpghs!

today so shiok, no homework at all. hahas. just that i was stoned half the day. then today speech day rehearsal was quite crap, only ran through twice, and amirul was like laughing at me. >.< yat kah went to walk walk around lot1, walk for so long. then i fell in love with one billabong wallet! it's damn nice and affordable! guess the colour? yeah, it's brown. hahas. (: it's really nice. but im scared that when i go and buy at the end of the year, it would have gone. cuz i cant possibly buy now, my current wallet havent rot yet. but it's really nice!!! its so chio. hahas. then we went to pasar malam outside lot1 there, then saw got $3 belt. WOO. i want go see tommorow see if it goes well with jeans. if yes, im going to buy it, it would be such a great buy! =D

nigel, i just hope you wont do this kind of things again. sorry if i reacted badly today. but, cant really blame me right? just hope next time wont liddat le (;

SHOPPING tommorow!!!

2006-07-17T21:20:00.000+08:00

expiration

whew. okay, much better now. okay, ive calmed down, and exhaled lots of air. WHEW.

nowadays in school nothing much to do, just lessons and lessons after lessons. but its surprising that i can pay attention now. maybe in the first half of the year, most of my time was devoted to SLC, so i didnt have much energy to pay attention in class.

cheering comp coming! im really worried for our class. we havent even prepared! and wheres our class tee? oh god. really very scared that we will lose face lor. lose never mind, but lose face... very malu leh.

the trip to korea sounds so enticing, and i am able to go, my parents gave permission; BUT(why is there a but in all of my life's events?) i just realised i have sentosa performance on 5/8. diao. >.<

looking forward to beauty and the beast. a day of fun! [i hope]

2006-07-17T21:13:00.000+08:00

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH my internet connection is breaking down. i HATE THIS. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

my msn also become crazy liao. sign in sign out sign in sign out. you think very fun arh huh msn? you crazy fool.

and i dont know how to do amath. argh. ppl say easy de i also duno how to do. how stupid can i get? im such a moron. tommorow got test somemore, so stupid liao still never study. sure fail sure fail. i HATE THIS.

2006-07-14T21:07:00.000+08:00

ANTAGONISTIC

these days very busy. also dont really know what to post.

oral was fine, thanks for the well-wishes by some.

i really dont know what to say. mind block. >.< bye

2006-07-11T21:19:00.000+08:00

nervous yet again;

ahhh. im nervous again. tommorow is oral le! omg so nervous. and this time, its going to be tommorow for sure, nothing can change it, not like my speech the last time.

im worried that i wont do well. if i dont, then i wont be able to continue to take hmt. argh. but i get nervous so easily, last time with SHEN already trembling le. now you ask me to talk to strangers?! i really hope i dont freak out tommorow. if i do, then bye-bye liao.

today had some health talk aka sex talk. tell us about STDs and all. quite lame. but made me confirm my descicion once more that i will wait.i think when many people hear this, they will think im a prude or something, but sex is just something that i believe should be kept for your life partner, and not just someone whom you feel comfortable with.

speaking of this, i think people shouldnt give the wrong signals lar. if you dont like the girl, just treat her as your friend please. dont give her SO MANY wrong signals that she mistakens it. that wouldnt be nice right?

anyway, i was walking home today, passed by a void deck which sat several pupils of a neighbouring secondary school, XXX, then as i walked past, they all stared at me, dont know for what. then i just pretenf to ignore them, but im well aware of everything. then they said something about what "oi, govt high de, govt high de". please, this is plain RUDE okay? im just so fed up with these kind of people. they think they're so high up, when they're actually not.

everyone should have some kind of limits. you know your own limits. dont do anything that's beyond it.

ah. shant talk about it anymore. really nervous for tommorow. im the last one, even worse. >.<

good luck to me. tons of it.

2006-07-09T16:29:00.000+08:00

plain STUPIDITY

i cant believe how idiotic i can get. i actually forgot to bring my history essay guide home! ah stupid stupid stupid me. argh. thanks to wenjie for volunteering to help me type it out. THANKS A MILLION. i mean, i do copy homework, its just that i dont like to copy history homework. but even if i dont copy, i nearly failed some essay, i forgot for ss or history. ):

i dont know why, but im getting more and more careless by the day. i cant have this! ive left so many things in school this semester! and this is only the end of second week.. if this continues, im dead. im so so dead.

from now on im going to double check triple check and whatever not. i will. >.<

2006-07-08T20:31:00.000+08:00

forget-

well, gave my speech on friday. FINALLY. a lot of people say i spoke very weirdly. ah. nvm, its all over le. i can only try to do better the next time. (:

today had dance, really tiring cuz we had to wear the mask and run around. almost couldnt breathe! was panting hard after running through the whole thing even once.

before that, on friday, had to remake the mask so 4 dance people [excluding me] came to my house to do the mask. had quite a fun time. hahas. then one person do very slow, so stay back longer =P and accompany me to talk. ahh. ive thought through it le. im giving up, its no longer an option to me anyway. i just hope that i'll get over this soon. i hope (: feel like changing my blogskin. go se first bah.

bye.

2006-07-05T19:17:00.000+08:00

DUI BU QI

im really sorry to those two people whom ive done wrong to. really sorry. but i love you guys. you still can forgive me and all that. im really sorry lah. i dont know what ive done. but i know you feel like scolding me. but you dont want to see me cry, thats why you all ganged up to bluff me to make me feel better. but in fact, i feel weird. ahhh. i would rather you all scold me or something. like this, im feeling worse cuz i did something wrong and you all just forgave me liddat. T_T. i feel so GUILTY.

but thanks anyway. you all are really my BEST FRIENDS man. thanks for forgiving me. but once again, sorry. ):

2006-07-04T20:06:00.000+08:00

the UBER-IMPORTANT day

just got wind of news that this friday got OT dinner! at Hwa Chong boarding school, 7-9pm. whee so FUN! hahas. im going lah. duh. cant miss it for the world man! (: im kind of wondering would this be the end of us? i dont know about the others, but for me, i dont really talk to them anymore. sad ):

anyway, im making a speech tommorow! oh god im so so NERVOUS! im so worried that i'll stutter and say something wrong! if i really do, then im screwed lor. sure get scolded till like shit.

Good morning mrs ong, teachers and fellow student. im heng yih fang from class 3T1 and im here in representation of the students' council to tell you more about The Straits Times School Pocket Money Fund...

ahh. really VERY VERY nervous. i think my 'nervous' system is working at twice the speed. hahas.

the worst thing is, whenever i feel VERY nervous, i would feel like shitting. wah piang. if tommorow really feel like shitting im dead lah. ):

wish me luck, i think i'll need it. >.<

2006-07-03T21:19:00.000+08:00

BAD-min-ton

today went for badminton outing with 201 people! was quite fun even though only managed to play for AWHILE only. then the strings on my racket broke. ): have to change lah. already decided le. white colour! hahas.

then after our time was up, we stayed and slacked for awhile. then went out. then we were like playing on enlin's bike. hahas. so fun. i rode on both enlin's turn and weini's turn. so fun! i loved the feeling. but weini's one more steady. no offence enlin. however, after i realised that sitting sideways was better, everything went well. (:

though i didnt play much today, felt quite happy lah. hahas.

i think women nowadays deserve respect. they can march around in high heels for the whole day, and not whine or complain in public. how many guys can do that? no offence to guys of course. people always say women are weak, but think about their perserverance in wearing high heels. definitely deserves respect, dont you think? ;)

2006-07-02T22:21:00.000+08:00

happy

well, this is one rare occasion. im happy!

one reason, i can sign into msn! hahas. i think from the amount of exclamation marks im using, you guys can tell how happy i am right? XD

today met up with huimin to do my mask. i think its going to be a failure anyway. i too shi bai le. ): hahas. whee~ no matter what, still very happy.

ever wondered why nowadays i always online so late? i also duno. maybe its because these few days i watch tv till too late then online. online also nothing much to do except blog.

sometimes i think, should people regret? i mean, many of us often do, but should we? or should we do things ALL the right way, make no mistakes, so we wont regret? but people say we learn from mistakes, and that failure is the mother of success. but if we succeed all the time, we wouldnt fail. does that mean we dont learn? but it doesnt make sense? if we dont learn, how are we going to succeed? unless that person is perfect, but nobody is perfect. all this are contradicting anyway.

ROY NG was like telling us about the 'prejudism' people have against T1 people. i must say i have not much comment over it ; meaning im lazy to comment as this problem has surfaced too many times before. ive said so many things till im tired of it myself le. but this thing isnt new to me[as you can tell], cuz ive been in 01, then now T1. i dont blame people for being 'prejudiced' against 01/T1 people, for as the "top" class of the level, we are easily labelled as "nerds", "bookworms" and etc.

i guess that means that 01/T1 people are not as popular, no matter as a class, or as an individual. but i think thats not true, the perceptions people just place upon us. maybe cuz im both an 01 and T1 person, you may think im sticking up for "my own type" of people. but i must say that there are all types of people in each class. every class. and my class may just happen to have more people who treat studies more seriously. im being partial here[am i?], and so i think that even though people think that we are "nerds" and whatever, i think that everyone has their own views and opinions. there is no reason i should say that whatever people say about us is wrong, instead, they do make alot of sense.

however, id just like to say that people are still people, and we are not cold-blooded no matter how much we like to study. and what we hear people say do matter to all of us ; maybe some more than the other. i just feel that no matter what you say, please process it through your brain, in order not to hurt people. that's what ive learnt.

and since ive learnt, means im on my way to success? (:

have you ever thought why succeed is double e-d ; whereas success is double-s?
because you need to double your strength before you can double your elation. (:

2006-07-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

so frustrated now. i dont know whats the problem with my msn messenger. cant sign in. ARGH. i haven had this problem for so long now you pop out again??? AHHHH. hate you hate you hate you lah stupid windows.

i keep getting 'rejected' by it. i dont like rejection! WAH PIANG EH. still cannot. im going bonkers liao. i simply hate this technical problem. it screws me the wrong way.

okay, i have to calm myself now. breathe in, breathe out. okay better.

tommorow going to cut my hair. FINALLY. my fringe is like so long. going to get caught soon i bet. aiyah. my hair sucks now. so damn ugly. i hate my hair. >.<

maybe cuz now i very irritated, so hate everything. ))):

why liddat? T_T

EDIT: btw, happy bdae meh. (:
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2006-06-30T22:33:00.000+08:00

dont have anybody to talk to online. pathetic. im such a loser. LOSER.

2006-06-30T22:14:00.000+08:00

heartache. my heart abit pain. hahas. feel a little betrayed, a little hurt and alot confused. when i heard the news, my brain was like all gurgled up and in a whirl. i couldnt even think straight. but just as usual, crying helps. for me. i just cried all my sadness out, and i felt immediately better the other day. now i dont know what to know. she's not telling me anything anymore. instead im having to listen to other people. and people = more than one. im not angry or pissed off or hurt by her, it's by him that he would do such a thing to hurt me. i cant believe it, really. its just so hurting. and it also hurts me to know that im not close to THEM anymore. haix. ive said so much, but now i feel really empty inside. now i think of it, i dont have any BEST friend in this school. i dont have any best friend who regards me as one. all of us have made new friends, and it seems im the one who doesnt have any real good friends.

maybe anonymous has a point. maybe im such a sucker, and maybe even a bitch. i dont know. im afraid to know. but even if so, i wont know what to do either. i aint perfect and im never going to be. im just who i am, a simple average girl who likes to talk and chat, and wishes to have a lot of friends. close friends. a pity my last wish cant be fulfiled.

i dont blame anyone for not being close with me. i chose to distance myself away from them. as a matter of fact, it's not a choice for me either. it just happened. i dont know why too.

perhaps im such an idiot that i dont realise what's really going on around me. maybe im too self-absorbed and hao lian that i neglect other people. maybe im stuck-up. maybe i talk too much.

i think anonymous would agree with me.

and i would be surprised if he/she doesnt.

2006-06-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

change is good?

school reopen second day le. still feel like in holiday. hahas. holiday lag. amazingly, ive managed to finish most of my holiday homework. wah. hahas.

change of timetable, change of seating plan. change of teachers too, i suppose. makes me wonder whether change is good. i do think that change is good sometimes, just like ROY said, we are too used to our comfort zone that we do not try to get out of it. i think thats true for me, my ex-seat rocks lah. hahas.

but my seat now still rocks lah. hahas. (:

now workload still okay, can still have time to online means got quite alot of time. i'm getting tuition sometime soon. think i really need it. heck lar.

i just gave up this great opportunity to be professionally trained in drama. no, i shouldnt say i gave it up. my mum forced me to give it up cuz she said i had too many things on my mind, too many things i have to do. i somehow agree with her, but i cant be expected to give it up so easily right? then argued with her, in the end still lose. nevermind, ive gotten over it le. just feel sad that i have to pass this chance on.

anyway, i dont know what to say le, so shall just end here. byebye.

2006-06-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

finally. im online after so long. ive been so busy i cant bring myself to on the computer. school's reopening in 2 days, i still have tons of homework undone. well, this is definitely a first for me. LOL. not that it's something to be proud of.

ive just thought of something. some people are shy to talk about sex, or even say the 3 teeny letters. but why arent they afraid to say that someone's pregnant? it's the same thing right? people(women) have to have sex to get pregnant. but when people go, "oh, you're pregnant!", it's almost the same as saying, "oh you had sex!". isn't it?

well, to me it's almost the same. maybe i'm more open. hahas. to me, sex isn't something to be ashamed of, if you do it under legal conditions, of course. hahas. so long never blog le. don't know what to say.

going to see classmates again. okay la, happy lo. but see homework, not happy.
congrats to ROY for getting engaged! whee! PAPA! (:

2006-06-14T17:24:00.000+08:00

the good old times

one of my sec105 juniors sent me a testimonial. it's so sweet lah. just realised that i love them quite alot, i shall visit them more! (:

oh yah, btw jianyi, how did you find my blog? curious. hahas. joyce, you horny ah-ma, rapist and hao huo se (: meh, really meh? hahas.

her testimonial made me think about sec1 orientation. made me think about when they first became independent during the mass games, when i was pissed off with them. sometimes ignorance is bliss, and maybe that was the catalyst to bond them together. i remember them cheering by themselves even without me telling them to! even though they didnt do very well for campfire night, i'm still DAMN proud of them! 105, i love you! where's my class tee? =P

tommorow will be 201 class chalet. so excited. hahas. even though now we've seperated, it doesnt really feel all that weird as i thought it would be. everyone seems to have gotten use to their new environment quite fast, with some even liking it more that the past. well, it's their choice. but 201 will always be a part of me, memories that i will remember.

holidays are almost over. my homework, still tons left undone. must really buck up le.

sigh. i say this everytime, but i do hope this time i will walk my talk, practice what i preach. (:

2006-06-10T17:12:00.000+08:00

12SLC OT

it's been 7 days since 12SLC officially ended, and i must say ive been slacking all the while till now. quite miss all of you, but i didnt miss it as much as i thought i would. i mean, i think about you guys often, but not always, you know? although i keep singing the JANGGUAN song over and over again. (:

over 6 months, ive gotten to know MANY MANY new people. thanks to all of you 28 people for everything, all the tears we've shared, all the joy we've had, all the laughter and the troubles. thanks for all of that. i hope we'll never lose contact, and continue to crap and meet up together.

grand finale, i remember, went past in a blur. everything was over, so fast. i remember the whole OT crying, especially the girls. even when we were singing our song. the rush of emotions, the sense of tiredness, accomplishment, and sadness all merged into one. all our hard work had finally paid off.

i feel that the OT had bonded together only during 12SLC, and of course afterwards. but all's not too late. i have confidence in all of us staying together. really love you guys. <3 12SLC OT XD

2006-05-17T22:07:00.000+08:00

ONENANO!

today is CHEERING COMPETITION!!! and ONENANO got into the finals!!! WOOHOO! im so happy!

but today is such an emotional day for me. my feelings were upturned and flipped 360 degrees. when we took back our english paper, i was happy. then later amath, ABIT sad only. then SS, hai.. homework period i went crazy! we were like practicing the cheers, but at a muted level. so hilarious. hahas. then went to change into our cute pajamas! we also took lots and lots of class photos! so CUTE!

oh yah! we also took our actual class photo! i look forward to collecting it!

then we set off for the hall at such an early time, we were the first one there! then we sort of like danced to the music. move it!

first one up was... US! and i think we cheered quite well, except that i dropped my umbrella.. sorry ): but overall, i guess it was well done though! XD then our class was so HIGH during the games session! i think it's because we finished our business then dont have to worry anymore. hahas. quote from judges 'we set a really high benchmark' (((((((((:

well anyway, i just malu-ed myself totally lah. nvm for ONENANO, it's ALL WORTH IT!

ONENANO rocks my socks! [harvin, if you're reading this =P]
i really LOVE US ALOT ALOT! thanks for everyone's co-operation and enthusiasm that allowed us a spot in the finals! three cheers for everyone!

WE ROCK. XD

2006-05-15T21:20:00.000+08:00

there can be miracles...

when you believe...

there has been a miracle today! i passed my EMATHS! even though.. not very good. nevermind, i still passed! almost A2. hahas. happy enough le.

we also got back BIO and PHY section A and B respectively. just hope that my other sections get higher. PRAY PRAY PRAY.

HMT was relatively good.

cheering comp is coming!!! SO SO EXCITED. we are going to win man!

my top hat so cute! XD

T(1) ONENANO rocks man! hahas.

we're going to have so much fun tommorow! cant wait. (:

2006-05-14T12:45:00.000+08:00

regret

now.. after exams, really nothing to do. i want to buy my shoes! but later got family dinner somemore.

today is mother's day! happy mother's day mum! i gave her a toy flower two days ago. hahas. early bird.

my personal checklist

[ ] buy my brown shoes
[ ] buy that bag
[ ] read books
[ ] watch movies(s)
[ ] go bowling many many times
[ ] cut my hair
[ ] sleep more
[ ] go shopping

i dont think i can fulfil all of them lor. haix.

holidays are coming but i think im not going to have time to do ALL of it. argh.

holidays are supposed to be fun and relaxing. but mine is some sort like busy, packed and perhaps only a little fun?

now that i think of it, im actually quite scared to get back my results. furthermore, meet-the-parents session coming up. and if i get bad results, im really really doomed. perhaps i'll even get grounded. then i wont get to accomplish any of my things! then really die le.

cheering comp.. i WANT to take part! but im not free on tue, unless you guys are willing to meet up with me in the morning. but im willing to stay back tml. and i hope we can finish up most of the stuff tommorow. i want to win cheering comp! 3p1 say their class willing to take part, and that they will win. i DONT care. 3T(1) onenano is going to win! but even if we dont win, also must have fun!

im settled, and bend up
each coporal agent to this terrible feat
away, and mock the time with show
false face must hide what the false heart doth know

i love ~~macbeth~~ LIT

2006-05-12T21:54:00.000+08:00

finish ;

MYE end le. should i heave a huge sigh of relief? but actually never really pia alot, maybe thats why im not really relieved bah.

anyway, my physics is dead. for sure.

these few days have been really busy for SLC, and for the next few weeks would be even busier.

SLC is coming in two weeks' time! feel so excited that all our hard work is finally paying off. tommorow is FAC's briefing. cannot let BP down. hahas.

after exam like very empty like that. nothing much to do. also dont know why. hahas.

went to borrow three books. all have sexual content. hahas. my wonderful bedtime stories. hahas.

ah. feel kind of sad and stupid. ):

hmmph.

2006-05-08T22:20:00.000+08:00

SEXY

change blogskin. nice? the dancers in the picture so sexy. hahas.

today, thank you so much. really love you, and thank you for the care and concern (:

today is AMATH paper. killer man. hahas. really PRAYING hard that i can pass. please man. just a pass and i'll be jumping up and down with glee. also, CME was horrible too. ROY set the paper. how could he?

Q : what do muslims say when they greet each other?
A : hello.

hahas. funny right. got funnier ones but i forgot le.

had a nice long chat with HUIMIN today. really felt very happy and satisfied with what i have now.

once again, THANK YOU. <3 YOU

2006-05-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

i aint a mugger.

exam come liao. actually, it's actually going to be over very soon.

ss, eng, chi all okay.
emaths p.1 minus arnd 20 marks le.
lit i hope i didnt write nonsense.
history i want to get A1.

all the previous exams still felt okay. its just this coming week thats going to be disastrous. all the sciences and maths in one week. argh. just wish that my mind doesnt explode and all my brain juices come flowing out onto the table during the exam. im beginning to sound a little like HUIMIN. LOL.

just hope that i wont fail anything bah. meet the parents session coming up le. my mother says she wants to go. ROY says he wont release some report slips until their parents come. i hope its not mine. i dont want ROY to complain to my mother that ive been talking too much in class. then i'll be in deep trouble le. =X

i really dont want to fail anything. not even cme. please, fate and metaphysical aid doth help me.

2006-04-30T15:37:00.000+08:00

Name 20 pple u can think of at the top of your head..., dun read the below qns before u write (aka no cheating)...n tag at least 5 pple...

wahlao. huimin.. T_T

1. huimin
2. wenjie
3. qp
4. roy ng
5. weini
6. jiawei
7. jane
8. soon beng
9. swusan
10. yumei
11. damian
12. jiajie
13. ashleigh
14. mehmeh
15. mr ng yong heng
16. tiger tan
17. vivien
18. derek
19. ghan yean
20. weijie

How did you meet 14? [MEHMEH]
cuz we get v gd results in PSLE so when come BPGHS become same cls.

What would you do if you never meet 1? [HUIMIN]
i would have no one to talk to when i am bored, no one to listen to my crap and my troubles, and well.. the list goes on. dont need me to elaborate la.

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated..[WEIJIE AND SWUSAN]
OMG. yumei and jane wld be so pissed(cuz of weijie, not ss). wish them gd luck lor. lol. then secretly ask ss to break with weijie.

Did you ever liked 19? [GHAN YEAN]
well, i like all my friends. (:

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple? [JIAWEI AND VIEN]
i thought they already are? always lik couple when going to CO. lol.

Describe 3 [QINGPING]
big eyes. alot of bf.

Do you think 8 is attractive? [SOONBENG]
lol. okay okay lar. i have to say so, if not later he kill me :P

Tell me smth about 7? [JANE]
ah lian at 1st look, but damn clever. has a facination with monkeys

Do you know any of 12's family? [JIAJIE]
sorry, no, dont wish to either. lol.

Whats 8's favourite? [SOONBENG]
err.. ka jiao ppl? lol. i duno.

What would you do if 11 confesses dat he/she likes you..? [DAMIAN]
ROFL. i would laugh, and laugh, and laugh....

What language does 15 speak? [NG YONG HENG]
borken english. hahas.

Who is 9 going out with? [SWUSAN]
HUIMIN. qp is her EX tho. LOL

How old is 16 now? [TIGER]
AHHH???!!! i dunno? have to be more than 40 bah. should be around 45. but our sch 45th anniversary liao leh. aiyoh. duno.

When was the last time you talked to 13? [ASHLEIGH]
....? a wk ago? don even know why i put her into this quiz. just thought of her only. blech.

What is 2's fav band/singer? [WENJIE]
seriously, i duno. SORRY.

Would you ever date 4? [ROY NG]
OMG. never. hes my papa. how can incest???

Would you date 7? [JANE]
em. i girl, she girl, negative + negative = positive? LOL. cant be.

Is 15 single? [NG YONG HENG]
NO!!! he has a very loving relationship with his wife. (((:

What is 10's last name? [YUMEI]
CHER. car. vroom.

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11 [DAMIAN]
i said no already! stop asking!

What school does 3 go to? [QINGPING]
any skool wif jianhui

Where does 6 live? [JIAWEI]
private. cannot disclose. somewhere near to her zl

Whats ur fav thing about no 5?? [WEINI]
her obsession with LONGJOHNSILVER so i can go there eat also.

Have you seen number 1 naked? [HUIMIN]
ERR. NO. AND I DON WISH TO. again, negative + negative also cannot.

lol. i don wan to be evil leh. very difficult to think of 20 people leh. shall spare you all from my wrath.

must study for exams! jiayou jiayou jiayou!

2006-04-27T21:33:00.000+08:00

ah! im bored.

THANK YOU SO MUCH for teaching me AMATH today. even though we spent a lot of time chatting away. hahas. tuvm.

i think i finally know how to do log le. a little bit. (:

today is nomination day. so didnt go to school lah. but realised many schools also. hmmph. hahas.

wah dont know what to say leh.

im sorry people, if ive been a little emotional the past few days. i guess its stress and exams, and all. argh. getting a bit fed up with myself. it's like, i have the intent to do my homework and all, but i just cant work up the motivation to do it. argh.

nv. im not going to be very very very sad if i dont get good results this time. but after mid-year, you'll see me being a more hardworking girl. really have to catch up on loads of stuff. i want to be like sec 2, even if never study for test, also wont fail, cuz got listen in class.

haix. i feel really sad when teachers scold me. any teacher. i'll try not to kena scolding next time lah. keep quiet in class. keep my head down, and copy.

wondr if i can do that? if can, miracle lor. LOL

2006-04-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

hmm

today is SS paper.

was quite okay i guess. i was chiong-ng all the way after finishing the first part. realised i didnt have enough time. but i completed lah. heng. hahas.

lit was slacky today. hahas. crapped around till recess.

then an immensely saddening thing happened during form class. i shall not elaborate too much lah. in summary, our class name is changed. no longer HARDBALLS, but 3T1-derfools. get it? wonderful, but with a twist. i was quite disappointed at first, cuz i thought most of the class had agreed on that name, but quite a number did not like the name at all. i mean, no offence or anything, but if it was said at the beginning that many people disliked the name, i am still okay with changing it. however, after four whole months, and when ive already got used to us being hardballers, the name is changed.

cant blame me for being sad though. as said from somebody, 'i feel alot for HARDBALLS'. probably true bah. i tend to put a lot of effort and hope into something that i like, which in this case probably happened.

but, majority wins la. i have no choice. im not being resentful, but... i really love hardballs.

it will always remain a part of me.

i felt really sad lah. haven even start the australian science quiz start crying liao. haix. people still think i fake one. sad.

weini don cry. all of us very sad, but no choice ah, seriously.
don be sad okay? (:

but just as long as the class will take part in cheering comp, and put effort into fostering class spirit, class name doesn't really matter bah. i hope so.

but i'll love 3T1 always. (:

featherlight

2006-04-21T22:50:00.000+08:00

besides featherlight being the brand of a durex condom, it reminds me of a sweet and gentle touch. maybe that's why they gave it this name?

had oral yesterday. ORAL that's all. no additional words behind ah. quite a funny incident lah. hahas. but i think i wont fail.

today after school went home super early. become super guai giah. good girl. hahas.

i seriously think i have split personality. i mean, when i first stepped into T1, and got to know new people, i asked them this question. 'do i look like one who cries easily?' majority of them replied no swiftly, as if the answer was very obvious.

i know i look cheery everyday. i know i seldom frown. but my inner self is quite fragile. but very very few people know that.

ah. today mind block. post some other day. bye.

2006-04-18T22:35:00.000+08:00

你到底是想对谁说
那三个字
我真的很想知道
或听到

你对我说那三个字

虽说我不应这样做
但是我心总有欲望
总会有着一丝希望
会有一天亲口听见

你对我说那三个字

我知道我很坏
我知道我没改
如有那么一天
我会深情地说

我爱你

2006-04-18T22:00:00.000+08:00

ah. im tired.

and i think i cant take it anymore. everytime i see people studying so hard, i look at myself and i think. what the hell am i doing? it's like. okay. exams starting next week, but i havent even TOUCHED my books yet? and it's like, i dont know why i am not starting revision, and why MY CLASS people not revising! that's so weird.

cuz we are triple science, we're supposed to be the nerds and the muggers who study every single day, mug mug mug, ace all the tests.

but seriously, thats not true. i think I'M certainly lack of time. i dont know if other people in my class feel it, but i just feel that we dont have enough time. people have homework period to do homework and we dont, and whilst they can revise at home, we have to do homework.

i mean, i personally have no one to blame or accuse, for i was the one who chose to take triple, and i should have known how hard it was going to be. but i didnt expect this. you can call me selfish or what, but i'd rather them go home before us, then they do their homework at home. then wouldnt that be a much fairer option? but of course, SOME pupils will say that it's unfair for them to go back earlier than us.

i say, why not? they didnt choose triple, why should they be forced to stay back as late as us?

and regarding to the selfish point, yes, i dont wish for them to stay back in school to finish their homework for it would benefit them. yes, im selfish. so? you cant blame me for looking after my own interests. and some teachers even go into their classes during homework period to conduct lessons. now is that fair for us?

i knwo that nothing is fair in this world, and nothing would ever be fair. we triple students,chose to take an extra subject, and we must not say other people have it easier or whatever, for even if it's true, we can only ask ourselves why then did we choose triple?

my answer to that is this. I think that triple sounds nicer, and taking an extra subject would mean greater possibilities in the future. but as i said, thats what I personally think. im not saying only triple is good. ive never said that, and i never will.

all students in our school are given the same opportunities to do everything. so it's up to us HOW we do that thing. and us, being triple students, have the reponsibility of taking another subject. and, by getting into triple, it means that we ARE capable of doing that subject well.

so, to cut the story short, i MUST JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!!

i cannot let myself lag behind. no matter whoever said i would fall very hard, i know.

but even if so, i will try my best to keep up. i shall not falter, nor shall i fail without a struggle.

[lady-gentleman]

THE GENTLE ROY XD

2006-04-15T22:31:00.000+08:00

ah. some problem with my blog. the thing exceeded the border. so i'll have to post a long post to prevent it from overlapping my tagboard.

just now went to my sis's shop, and guess who i saw?

SUZANNA LEE!

oh god. i was like a bit shocked, and unsure whether it was her or not. cuz her face looked so white after the facial. :P

these few days not quite eventful i suppose. nothing much happened.

BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH.

i think im getting more and more pervertic. hahas. i know im already very pervertic, but cant help it la. not when there's someone so alike for me to be pervert with. (: you know who you are. hahas.

yesterday night dreamt of a very hot guy. but now cant seem to remember his face. but i can remember what he did. it's not M-18, but perhaps hovering around NC-16? lol. anyway, hope this is long enough to remove the blockage. tata (:

im so high now. XD

2006-04-14T22:44:00.001+08:00

doing some fun quizzes.

Your Hawaiian Name is:

Alani Laka

What's" your Hawaiian Name?

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer:
Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt.Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up!
Why a Cancer will love you:
You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs.A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

oh. lol.

You Have Low Self Esteem 32% of the Time

Generally, you feel pretty darn great about who you are, even when you mess up or fail.Occasionally, a huge setback will make you question yourself, but you pick yourself up quickly.

How is Your Self Esteem?

this is pretty true i guess. (:

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

ooo. am i? lol.

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
You give and take equally in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.

How Are You In Love?

ahh! so true! but not very good...

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.
You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorableEven a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's lifeBy giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.
Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

SO TRUE! XD

Your French Name is:

Jenay Brabant

What's" Your French Name?

not nice....

Your Kissing Purity Score: 69% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing
Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

Kissing Purity Test

THIS IS NICE! (:

You're an Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urgesIf someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of storyYou can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kissesA total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

You Should Be An Aries

What's good about you: you're fearless about taking charge and grabbing the spotlight
What's bad about you: if you're annoyed, you're not going to hide it!
In love: you jump in quickly and don't mind risking your heart
In friendship, you're: likely to have a new best friend each month
Your ideal job: detective, butcher, or surgeon
Your sense of fashion: ultra trendy and sexy
You like to pig out on: appetizers, especially buffalo wings

What Sign Should You Be?

weird...

Your Love Element Is Fire

In love, you are a true listener and totally present.For you, love is all about feeling more alive than you've ever felt.
You attract others with your joy and passion.Your flirting style is defined by your strong ability to communicate.
Fun and play are the cornerstones of your love life.And while your flame may burn too brightly, it's part of your appeal.
You connect best with: Wood
Avoid: Water
You and another Fire element: will likely burn out quickly

What Element Is Your Love?

Your Porn Star Name Is...

Jenny Jiggles

What's" Your Porn Star Name?

so pervert. lol.

What Your Underwear Says About You

You like your underwear to make you feel girlish and pretty. Let's hope you're a chick.
You're comfortable in your own skin - and don't care to impress anyone.

The Underwear Oracle

LOL

You Are 56% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.
Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.
But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.
You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

VERY TRUE

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.
They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.
It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.
They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

TOTALLY UNTRUE

Your Birth Month is November

Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years.You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian.
Your soul reflects: Compassion, friendship, and secret love
Your gemstone: Citrine
Your flower: Chrysanthemum
Your colors: Dark blue, red, and yellow

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

Your Sexy Brazilian Name is:

Lisandra Pera

What's" Your Sexy Brazilian Name?

ahh not bad.

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.
You've been deeply wounded in the past, and you're still recovering from that hurt.
It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off.
In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.
A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always think things are going well.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

OH MY GOD!!! SO SO TRUE!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

THIS ALSO VERY TRUE!

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.But you may be ready in a couple of years.You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's" Your Ideal Relationship?

i love these quizzes! LOL

Your Lucky Underwear is Purple

Dreamy and idealistic, you envision great things for your life. Your lucky purple underwear can make those dreams come true!You're a busy little butterfly. You have the most projects, interests, and friends of anyone you know.
You also have a flair for the dramatic. Sometimes too much drama comes in to your life and brings things to a stop.If you want to focus more, and flutter less, put on your purple underpants. They'll help you get the important things done.

What Color Is Your Lucky Underwear?

gay colour

Your Stripper Song Is

Like'>http://click.linksynergy.com/fs-bin/stat?id=CkIfgYlVpZA&offerid=99176&type=3&subid=0&tmpid=1826&RD_PARM1=http%253A%252F%252Fphobos.apple.com%252FWebObjects%252FMZStore.woa%252Fwa%252FviewAlbum%253FselectedItemId%253D952177%2526playListId%253D952269%2526s%253D143441%26partnerId%3D30">Like a Virgin by Madonna
"Like a virgin, ooh, oohLike a virginFeels so good insideWhen you hold me, and your heart beats, and you love me"
No virgin-ness implied. Not at all.

What Song Should You Strip To?

LOL.

You Should Weigh 151

If you weigh less than this, you either have a fast metabolism or are about to gain weight.If you weigh more than this, you may be losing a few pounds soon!

How Much Do You Weigh?

i duno how to convert. can someone help me? lol.

fun doing these quizzes but i got to go. GNITE! XD

2006-04-13T15:56:00.000+08:00

whee~

i LOVE hardballs! we rock. (:

around 1 week never post le. woo. busy ah.

did i post about 5 items? dont think so.

allright. first is inclined pull-up. did 18! woo! cool man.

then had sit and reach. DUH. of course we cheated. the teacher so blur lor. so i stretched 61. but then meijin even more. 61.5. whatever man. lol.

then is sit up. me meijin and siying planned to chiong 45? i forgot. but i think i did 50 in the end. wah. felt so shiok. hahas.

then standing broad jump. oh god. i was so nervous. but in the end still okay bah. a C i think.

and you know what? tom chan don want to give me that 0.01 sec for my 2.4. if not i A! shit la.

haix. anyway, today is sports day!

i was the cheerleader for PURPLE house! my own house! hahas. very very fun. thanks to ALL the hardballers who helped to cheer really really loud. very happy. XD

anyway, this year's sports day quite boring la. and i hope i am seeing signs of the class being really united as one.

anyway, had fun today (:

2006-04-09T14:19:00.000+08:00

my lousy fun day / WEST SIDE STORY

yesterday went to watch WEST SIDE STORY! alot of things happened also. shall narrate one by one.

in the early morning, at 11:00 am, which i am sure many of you were still asleep, 8 people - ME YUFEN WENJIE EDWIN JIAXUAN YIJUN MANYEE and her BF - MINYI (issit?) met at cck mrt station, then travelled down to city hall for lunch.

then blah blah blah, had lunch at burger king, walk around window shop, then met MEIWEI. then 9 of us proceeded to esplanade. then we met MS TAY! (: then after that CAIJUN joined us. initially i was feeling very very weird cuz i was the only person who wasnt from M1. but after that okay le.

WEST SIDE STORY is fantasic. it was an extremely wonderful musical! the actors cooperation with the orchestra was just splendid and marvellous! it's a modern day story of romeo and juliet, and it's VERY VERY NICE. my $89.90 was definitely well spent. im in love with musicals. (:

then after that we 'joined' with HONGWEI (see)JIAWEI LENDL CARLYN and went to walk walk again. then, after HONGWEI JIAWEI LENDL left, something really dreadful happened.

THE STRAP OF MY FLATS BROKE! and we were in suntec, and there was i, with a broken shoe.

then luckily, they all helped me to find a shoe shop and, i bought my FIRST pair of heels! it's white, and i think it's quite nice la. hahas.

through this incident, i found out that ALL OF THEM are immensely wonderful people! oh god! i simply love all of them! and they were so helpful and rushing all around to help me find a shoe shop. then i think i dalwded so much time that MEIWEI had to leave. so the rest of the good peeps i really really owe it to are : YUFEN CARLYN JIAXUAN YIJUN WENJIE EDWIN. and thanks to WENJIE for lending me money. hahas. if not, i'll just lend from someone else anyway. :P

it's the first ever time that i was stranded outside without even a cent left on me! not even one cent. yes, pun purposely intended. but actually, i HAD onecent with me! lol.

and anyway, i think yesterday wasnt a good shoe day cuz the metal chain of YUFEN's heels also broke! nvm i see if i can help you find. (:

for dinner, we went pizza hut, and poor me borrowed money again. im bankrupt now. ):

then the funniest thing was, after YUFEN left, we got LOST! can you believe it? and the reason was because we couldnt find the MRT sign. hahas. it was really hilarous la. we went rushing around the whole building, then in the end still came back to the same stop. we all had stitches in our sides from running too much. hahas.

but in the end, thanks to CARLYN, we finally found our way out. then met with JOANNE [LIM] and CHELSEA before the latter left. then we were all being lamers on the MRT by playing stupid word games. i had so much FUN! poor CARLYN kept kena sabo-ed by me. hahas.

even though i reached home at 9 something with a pair of exhuasted feet, i concluded the day by taking a hot shower and doing my homework. but i went to bed with a smile on my face, for i had such a wonderful day out making many new experiences.

THE END <3

2006-04-06T21:10:00.000+08:00

horror-

mid-year exams coming le. haix. im really scared i'll score really bad. i havent really been studying real hard as compared to the others.

and i absolutely HATE and DETEST those people who always say that they'll score real bad, and end up getting really terrific results. yes, i am jealous. so? and your face after receiving your results then asking me for mine makes me want to bash you up.

this is not dedicated to anyone okay? im just stating it. argh. i do not want to fail! amaths i know i'll fail but i just hope it's not too bad. and i'll HAVE TO HAVE TO HAVE TO pass my bio and my physics!

sometimes i really do wonder if i had made a wrong choice going to triple. an extra subject. what made me think in the first place that i could cope? well, it's not too bad now, but only results can prove the labour of my hard work, and see whether im really cut out for it or not.

now let me revise my targets.

english - A1 - i think its quite impossible now. my english is begining to suck. major.

hmt - B3 - please let me get a B3. or i'll be damn sad

amaths - i'm aiming for a pass? hopefully

emaths - A2 - i HAVE to

combined humans - A1 - i dont CARE if i have to MUG for the whole night. im getting an A for this.

full lit - ditto

bio - pass can?

physics - B4 - haix. mug mug mug

chem - A1 - or i'll be sad too.

if i get these grades, provided that i get, L1r5 is 8. haix. nvm. mid-year less than 10 i happy le. hahas.

i think i'll really have to work hard lor. if i wana excel. and i think i'm going to cry for mid-year. of course im hoping thats not cuz of my lousy results, but because my class rank is going to be WAY back. and it would be the first time man. im so damn sad even thinking about it now.

i dont want to cry. i really dont. but i dont feel like mugging too. im NOT a mugger. and i dont think i'll ever be. so what other alternatives are there?

i dont know. do you?

2006-04-05T21:33:00.000+08:00

treaty of sinhala;

nobody come my blog anymore is it? ah. very sad. ):

today was quite a boring day. nothing eventful at all. sians.

wednesday wear tie! hahas. actually i kind of like wearing tie. it's nice i think. looks more appropriate. had homework period where i completely slacked. did NOTHING at all. hahas. i cant do my work in school. i have no idea why. perhaps i just have this mindset that it's HOMEwork, so it should be done at home.

i finished the compre test in less than half an hour. then ROY was looking at me curiously. hahas. ROY is back, btw. no more specs. haix. i liked him better while he was wearing specs. looked younger and more adorable. hahas.

hmm. i feel that sex education should be told to children when they come of age, instead of telling them that 'they will know in due course'. i feel that parents who say that are just simply urging their children to find out more about SEX themselves, and it could most probably be harmful to them, for many sources available do not provide the correct information. and they might get the wrong idea of what is SEX, and may even take it lightly, disregarding it.

however, i feel that this IS the 21st century, and we should be more open-minded about things. however, of course we cant expect everyone to do so, especially the older generation for its really hard to change their mindset now. but i think that the younger generation of parents should be more open with their children, so to create more opportunities for them to learn from the right channel.

geslecht. thats german for sex. (thanks YUHUI)

should be a thing that is reserved for your most beloved to explore with. i used to think pre-marital sex was okay, but now i believe in chasity(?). keeping yourself for your lifetime spouse.

anyway, it's nice to talk about these kind of topics with your friends. provides hours of entertainment. hahas. (:

2006-04-04T20:33:00.000+08:00

narcisist

is that how you spell it? well this was what ROY called me today during english class. cuz he asked "what is a loudhailer?" then i went "yihfang" then i laughed. then he say im a nacisist, which i think means 'obsession with oneself'. lol. NO. hahas.

anyway, i think ROY looks very cute with his specs. cuz jason hsu got one picture like that. wearing specs. super cute.

i like vlee's bag also. it's green in colour. crumpler de. hahas. i used to think crumpler bags were quite nice, but now everyone seems to have them. it's not unique anymore.

ms lim was nervous today cuz osgodby came to sit in. even though today's lesson abit boring, but i still think ms lim is VERY nice! hahas. (:

nowadays i feel so free. i dont know why. hahas. just now went to see other people's blogs then they like never update like that. then my tagboard also nobody tag. hmmp. why am i such a weirdo? when people free i not free. when people busy i very very free.

i think i have to start being more serious in my work le. have to concentrate on those subjects that im not doing well in. (which is alot)

but recently ive been quite happy, cuz i finally can understand what teachers are talking about! i just hope that phase of not understanding a word is OVER. i certainly do hope so.

MAS showed me her works today. so nice. she let me name one of her songs. we thought of it together. it's called 'desires'. she draw so good. hmmp.

okay, i know my handwriting sucks. i KNOW. i really know allright? lol. no offence, but who likes to hear negative things about themselves? i mean, i dont mind hearing them sometimes, but not too often la k? break it to me gently too. hahas.

sigh. nothing to do now. except wait. tag okay? (:

2006-04-03T21:23:00.000+08:00

whee~

hahas. had 2.4 run today with M1. M1 people are nice. hahas. they all very friendly, even though some... i shall not comment. hahas. but only SOME. the rest all super nice. my timing sucks la. 14:21. i think. i went to peep over mrs ee's shoulder and that was what i saw. but i dont know if its accurate anot. i think thats a B? i have no idea. anyway, now running is over, i can slack for the rest of the year! woohoo! shiok.

hahas. today's lessons was quite allright i supposed. nothing much to talk about.

hmt test average bah. i hope i'll score okay.

oh ya. i got blisters on my right toe from running today. very pain. then it burst by itself somemore. then after walking 2.4 my left muscle cramped. then right toe blister, left leg cramped, how to walk? well, i managed it anyway, without anybody's help. lol. no offence. it was just hard climbing the staircase.

THANKEYOU huimin for the I-DRAGON! even though i high after recess nia. hahas.

dance was... painful and dizzy.

turned too many rounds while stubbing my toe and rubbing my knees on the floor. and the red carpet is so damn filthy! so dirty. i kept a distance away but somehow i just ended up there.

tommorow is quite a wonderful day! got many of my favourite subjects. hahas. okkay la. nothing to crap about anymore.

BYE!

2006-04-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

quite long time never blog le. recently just never really feel like blogging or whatever to blog about.

thursday investiture sucked la. okay, no offence, but quite a number of mistakes occured. nvm. we shall learn from them (: and btw, good job on couns board everyone! especially jiajie who put in so much effort. it turned out REAL NICE! hahas. even though i only provide paper. BUT the moon and all the stars drawn by me okay? hahas.

friday went for slc got scolding. i dont care. i want to prove JERRY wrong. totally and completely wrong. so what if you are senior? do you have the write to criticise us that badly? even if we are going at a slow rate, at least we are trying our very best. and we are NOT going to be screwed. N-O.

anyway, bangladesh dance is super cute! but i dont think i'll have the chance to do it. cuz i already have the nightmare one. and i think i'll be under so much stress to remember all the steps for 4 dances. i already forgot the bali one le. hahas.

im quite impressed with myself today. do homework whole day. so only left with amaths tommorow.

sorry mr loh. please dont blame us.

do you get the feeling sometimes you're angry or pissed off but you dont know how to break it to that person? i've been feeling that quite a number of times recently. but i think i have to suppress it la.

and i think im becoming more and more forgetful recently. i'm being so retarded that i forget what thing i have on what date. so im really sorry to those whom i pang seh. sorry i really didnt mean it.

okay i dont know if this would come out wrong, but i have a lot of appointments. okay im not boasting or whatever, but im really hogged down by work. as if the rest of you arent. lol.

but just realised that i have qute a number of additional responsiblities added on to just being a student.

im a councillor.
also running for a post in the 24th student council.
im participating in quite a number of various dances that i do not know whether liao lao shi is going to use or not.
involved in 12th slc
in triple science
have to set good example and be devoted and enthusiastic with HARDBALLS

last point is i will do it willingly la. hahas.

time not is 11:11. late liao. going to sleep soon.

wouldnt it be better if i knew you so much sooner? there would be an opportunity, rather than now, it's not even possible.

crapping la. just thought it sounded nice. hahas.

hitler is an opportunist. am i one too? (:

2006-03-28T21:35:00.000+08:00

HEY!

just realised i forgot to post about care and share! how could i?

okay. so monday morning, i went into homec kitchen to put ice cream. then stayed there and played with nigel kaylee kelvin and iris. then later mrs chiang come say we cannot boil water there cuz we never tell her. then we had to move all our things over to the care and share stall, which involved a lot of nigel running around and around. hahas. but roy only gave 3 people permission to stay downstairs. so me and kelvin went up. then had chem test! oh god. fail le.

then went down to prepare at hmt lesson. so fun! i poke eat poke eat the seaweed chicken. if got loss, i think is i cause de. hahas.

then lower sec recess damn fun! sell ALOT of ice cream. whahahas. upper sec didnt sell as much ice cream. only got a bunch of people keep pestering our class people to drink the melted ice cream 'soup'. for $2 only. wahlao. if $5 i sure drink lor. hahas.

then after that, we cleaned up and everything. then concluded the care and share and count money. even though we didnt earn THAT much, but i think ALL of those who went down had LOADS of fun la. hahas.

but then discovered today that tiger confused up the two mr NGs and went to 'scold' NG YONG HENG. cuz we told him we had permission from our form teacher, mr NG. ROY NG la. but apparently, he got it wrong. so sorry to mr NG YONG HENG.

today is a sleepy day. even lit wasnt half as fun as usual.

tommorow going for dance performance. hehe. hope it's nice.

3T1 ice cream!
1 for $1.50!!
chocolate vanilla raspberry!!!

MY RHYME (:

GO HARDBALLS!

2006-03-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

from dearest weini's blog.

8 qualities of my PERFECT lover.

1. must be 100% male. cannot have any alternate sexualities.
2. i HOPE can be at least 170 cm tall. best range = 172 - 175
3. dont need to be VERY HANDSOME, but must be pleasant looking. to ME at least. (:
4. must be chatty. cuz i like to talk.
5. be kind, loving, and caring. to me especially.
6. have just the right amount of muscles. not too much, not too little. JUST RIGHT.
7. be at least on the same intellectual wavelength as me. must be able to hold both serious AND relaxed conversations with me.
8. love me lots, be respectful to my parents, and respect my descision.

hahas. not much to espect right? i think alot of people can fall into this range bah. but actually i think, a perfect lover doesnt exist bah. if he's perfect in every aspect, then i would probably not fall in love with him. he'll just be someone i feel is unattainable and will feel insecure with. cuz he's too perfect, and im not.

and don't you think being with a perfect man 24/7 is scary? you'll be the only one making mistakes, but because he's perfect, he wouldn't mind at all. then in the end, i'll end up feeling guilty and the relationship confirm wont work.

and of course everyone has to have some bad points to improve on. for both the partners to discover and help each other along. right? that is why good relationship must consider a lot of factors.

loving someone is painful, but being loved is fortunate.
so love someone, and have someone to love you too. (:

2006-03-26T14:38:00.000+08:00

i think im going crazy.

i may appear normal to all of you guys, but i think im crumbling down. BIG time.

omg. i cant allow myself to do that. i must be positive. but i just dont know why my thoughts keep straying to the dark side. and then, i'll just feel like crying, and most of the time, i do.

i think im like a bomb. but a special one. it doesnt go off all at once, but it just takes a small spark to ignite me and i will explode. but i dont know why is it that fuel or whatever that is is creeps into me yet again and soon another spark will cause me to explode again.

i cant have this happening to me. i AM NOT LIKE THIS! i used to be a long-lasting bomb. which could last for a long long time without exploding. but what on earth is happening to me? why am i becoming like this?

the only explaination is that im going crazy. no other reason right? there can be no other reason why im having kind of a split personality. i cant deal with homework, and even when i think i can, i end up getting LOUSY results.

even for those kind of subjects which i should score, like chemistry and english and lit, i DONT get as good results as i should get.

and when i try to improve, problems just keep coping up and i have so many things on my mind that i have to deal with at one time! i have to haggle with so many different things and i have to concentrate and put a great deal of effort into all of them!

i try and try and try, but i keep on failing and failing.

you cant blame me if there ARE sometimes i feel upset or whatever at a small thing. it's just because everything comes in at one time! and im not a superhero. i cant handle so many things at once. and i dont think superheros ever had problems with their studies while juggling the task of saving the world. thats why superheros are acknowledged and respected by the whole world, whilst im not.

cuz im not a superhero. so please dont put too much stress on me. i think i cant handle anything more.

no. i shouldnt say that. i MUST be strong. cuz i've always been. and now it shouldnt change just like that. i should PERSEVERE on. and i'll come out of the crisis stronger than i ever was before. and, maybe then, i'll be a superhero. maybe. but for now, im just me who's trying very very hard. in all aspects of my life. and swallowing the tears, not wanting everyone to see my weakness. so please, please try to accept me for who i am, and at least try to know what im going through. im not the yf in sec2. ive grown up and matured. but, i think im still me.

2006-03-24T21:28:00.000+08:00

sometimes i just feel some things are best kept to yourself. more people knowing it may not work to your advantage.

i believe that a relationship is based on trust. no matter what relationship. trust is the most essential foundation you have to have. without trust, how are you going to establish your relation with each other? it will simply go nowhere right?

secondly, should be comfortable with each other. if you are not comfortable each other, how are you going to talk, or spend the time? that is why i believe really good friends can do whatever they like in front of each other. really really open. thats really GREAT i think. hahas.

third, i think communication is the most important. a good relationship must have both partners contributing and both wanting that relationship to do well.

like i recently wrote for my common test compo. the true flower of friendship has blossomed. hahas.

today is FRIDAY! but doesnt really feel like friday cuz we stayed back till around 2. so sian. then went to eat, crapped around, then came back home. did a little bit of homework, thinking of continuing them later.

tommorow still have the idiotic HSK. waste of money, waste of time. argh. the troubling problem of care and share coming up. how are we going to get ice cream back home without them melting? haix. now i really admire those people who organised the care and share. if i really do pull this thing off successfully, im going to laugh like a maniac. hahas.

my target for mid-year:

english - A1
hmt - A2
emaths - A1
amaths - C6
physics - B4
biology - C6
chem - A1
comb. hum - A1
lit - A2

i hope i wont disappoint myself yet again. JIAYOU YF!!!

2006-03-22T20:48:00.000+08:00

HEY

today was quite.. a hectic day i suppose.

sore throat a bit better le. hahas.

celebrated ROY's birthday for him today! hahas. we thought it was a belated one. but turns out we were EARLY! whahahas. we surprised him by doing the old trick - shutting windows and doors. he fell for it! hahas. then we shouted SURPRISE! then sang birthday song for him. hahas. but our birthday song SO FAST. not nice one. i prefer 201 de version. still got add in a lot of weird weird sounds de. hahas. next time must sing SLOWER. but still think he was quite happy. hahas. then weini and harvin came up with the cake. then we sing AGAIN. hahas. then he like, a bit shocked that we would buy him a cake. but can tell he quite pleased and delighted. then gave the cute HEAD that judith made and the whole class signed on it. VERY CUTE. hahas. im SURE ROY walked away from class today morning feeling very happy. hahas. (:

today SHEN never come. so free period for hmt. hahas. even though it means no test, but still hope he gets better soon. hahas.

we had SU lao shi's ke anyway. who is SU lao shi? soh siying lor. hahas. quite fun la.

then went to eat at long john after school. ate fish. yum yum.

then there were some pioneer jc girl who was practically drooling over shawn. shawn lee, who just happened to be in long john. she was like gaping and mouthing "that's shawn, thats shawn!" what a loser man. see an actor so excited. they also people right?

but maybe im being a little harsh here. maybe cuz we've been in the same school with him for quite a long time, and see him on a regular basis, that is why we dont kick up a big fuss whenever he walks by.

BUT, i do have friends asking me for his autograph and stuff. hey come on! im dont know him very well?!

nevermind about that.

but being a star is great isnt it?

you ge fame, money, recognition, and all those which i dont know cuz im not a star. but i would like to be, if i was given the chance. ROY asked us during english lesson yesterday 'who wants to enter competitions for fame?' i was one of the few who raised up my hands. i DO wish to be a star, but i dont know if i would have the courage to try out. im afraid i'd freak out and embarrass myself on national tv.

actually, i do admire those people who do have the courage to try out, even if they fail.

but when i do want to try, i do not want to lose. perhaps thats the competitive side of me. i love acting, it's my passion. but whether i'll have the chance to fulfil this passion in the future depends on myself. ME and ONLY me.

2006-03-20T21:51:00.000+08:00

whee!

first time in such a long time that ive completed my homework on the day itself! wahahas. but actually, today not much homework la. so, not much of an accomplishment anyway. hahas.

but today was quite a happy day! in spite of the many tests i thought i had, we only had 1! only got bio test, and this time im quite sure i wont fail till that badly. hahas.

and i passed my amaths test! MR NG so bad! he bluffed me i failed man! oh god. luckily i PASSED.

OMG. i just looked at my progress report. and my results suck like shit! my english got B3! oh god. i am so going to cry. i failed bio and amaths, but its just so bad to see them highlighted in red.

i only got 1 A1 and 1A2! 3 B3 and 1 B4! 1 C6, 1 E8, 1 F9...

OMG

i want to die.. if my parents see my results they're going to KILL me. OMG. why?????? im going to bed with this trauma tonight? im going to have nightmares.

these are the worst results ive ever gotten. how i wish i could turn back the clock. i would have paid more attention. ARGH!

2006-03-19T18:52:00.000+08:00

just been to see my friendster. woah piang. so long havent updated yet.

and just realised that i have so few testimonials! lol.

i was sick yesterday. VERY SICK. down with fever. now better le.

but one good thing. i got mc!

but alot of bad things. cuz i have so many tests on monday, there's no way i can skip school. hmmp.

but one other good thing is, i can skip p.e! woo! is that a good thing or a bad one? i dont know. hahas.

now doing my homework lazily. tommorow still have so many tests to study for! oh god. im going crazy.. lol. makes me think of a song. hahas.

its almost dinner time le. i'd better have my dinner soon or else cant eat my medicine le. hahas.

tommorow school reopen! excited to see friends again! whahahs. gang members must come and look for me for your presents okay?

GOODBYE XD

2006-03-17T21:24:00.000+08:00

im back from BANGKOK! hahas.

ok la. quite fun. hahas. bought alot of things. but mostly for my friends. lol.

haix. holidays ending le!!! WHY? omg its so fast! like never holiday like that! hahas.

today woke up then on the way to dance on lrt, then still blur blur like that. then was like wondering if i was still in 201 like that. no offence to hardballers, but like, i dont know. abit forget forget. hahas.

jet lag can anot? even though 1 hr.. but still got time difference k? hahas.

it's like, now, different classes, also no much difference like that. initailly, i admit of course got. but now, maybe im used to it le. maybe im like a chameleon. ut maybe thats good? i dont know.

ok. got lame lame thing from weini de blog. I DO. hahahas.

in no particular order,list down
3 ppl you talk to online,
4 ppl u see at school,
2 teachers,
3ppl uu love going out with,
3ppl in ur sms box.

1. huimin
2. wenjie
3. soonbeng
4. VINCENT
5. yufen
6. swusan
7. yumei
8. weini
9. qingping
10. jiawei
11. vivien
12. jane
13. ROY
14. derek
15. ghanyean

So what do you think abt no. 4? [vincent]
ans : i think many of you know right? DONT NEED ELABORATION. hahas.

How nice is no. 6 ? [swusan]
ans: SUPERB! hahas. gang de gang de!

On a scale of 1-10, how good looking number is no.5 ? [yufen]
ans: 8 bah. so chio. bleh.

Will you ever fall for no.11 ?[vivien]
ans: NONONO! I AM NOT THE LES! SHE GOT RENFU LE RIGHT? LOL

Honestly, if no.8 met with an accident, what will you do ? [weini]
ans: NO!!!!!!!!!! GANG DE! ALSO CANNOT! CRY TILL SIAO THEN GO FUNERAL CRY SOMEMORE. GIVE YOU FLOWERS TOO. lol.

How much do you lyk no. 2 ? [wenjie]
ans: errr... IS THIS A TRICK QNS? WHO SET THIS SYUPID QUIZ? hahas. very good friends. hahas.

Will 7 &13 make a gd couple ? [yumei & roy]
ans: YES! both very tall. hahas. this one so funny... ROFL

Would 14 kill you one dayy ? [derek]
ans: hmmm... i DON THINK SO BAH. he treat me so well. hahas. =)

Who do you lyk most ? 3 or 10 ? [soonbeng or jiawei]
ans: heh heh heh. sb as a guy friend, jiawei as a shiok and good and excellent girl-friend. total up, jiawei win bah! hahas.

Get 5 3 ppl with blogs to do this thing.
1. wenjie
2. jasmine
3. nigel

hehe. very fun neh. hahas

2006-03-13T17:30:00.000+08:00

just now i couldnt sign in to blogger. woah. scared me sia. i thought what happened le.

okay. i cant believe myself. i actually did homework! woo! okay. not alot, but at least i did okay? i finished bio paper, emaths paper, english essay lo! hahas. even though still have alot left, but its a start! hahas.

later going to start doing my chinese le. have to look for newspaper article. wah sian.

aiayh. i want to watch date movie! but nc-16 how to watch? i DONT look like a sixteen year old, do i? but actually, come to think of it, there's not much difference between 15 and 16 right? so why dont i look like one? hmmp. nvm. i shall age slower than those who look mature. hahas.

i dread doing the amaths paper. i mean, it's fine if i actually KNOW how to do that stuff, but i dont. argh.

going to thailand tommorow. no emotion. hahas. going to buy lots of things! whee. especially clothes. hahas. i'll haul a truckful of them back. lol.

i hate people who ignore me. bleah.

2006-03-12T14:00:00.000+08:00

hey. im back from lunch.

okay i shall continue. well that pervious post was about yesterday, and now this post is about today.

i woke up to the sounds of music blaring from the "carnival" downstairs. actually its bp TOWN day. such a.. nvm. hahas. our area is going to have lift upgrading! woohoo! lifts on every floor! hahas.

today i feel very sleepy. dont have the mood to do homework. but if i dont do, then i got no more time to do le right? so must get started on some. otherwise i'll be owing homework on the first day of school :P

but seriously, there's too much homework le la. walao. only "on leave" for one week nia. give su so much homework for what? it's not even like a holiday la, for goodness sake. holidays are meant to be relaxing.

anyway, just witnessed another episode of singaporean-ness this morning. at said town day, after announcing the first prize at the lucky draw, the rest of the people just simply went "oooh" disappointingly and just started to walk away, without even clapping for the one who won the first prize. it's simply so kiasu la. it's such a bad display of singaporean manners, and this appears like all of them just went there for the lucky draw and nothing else.

just bought CLEO. later going to read. bachelors addition. woah. hunks! hahas.

my self-confidence is dropping by the day. every time i look into the mirror, i feel like i want to hurl. especially when im in a bad mood. i feel like banging my head on a wall. kns. all those chio people good lor! haix. i only have myself to blame. i know huimin is going to say "dont look into the mirror lor". diao.

why cant i be chio? and tall? argh. some wishes can never be fulfilled. i hate myself sometimes.

SOMETIMES only arh. im not a psycho. yet. hahas.

2006-03-12T12:36:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to orchard with yufen. hahas. went to walk walk. didnt buy anything much la. she bought someone's present then i just tagged along lor. hahas. so extra.

we took neoprints too! hehes. not my BEST neoprint, but in future sure got many more chances de. hahas. (:

aiyah. gtg eat lunch le. come nack then continue to post. see ya!

2006-03-10T22:13:00.000+08:00

went to eat lunch with yufen today. then atfer lunch we saw bryan wong and bryan and leo from star idol! oh god! they so TALL and HANDSOME!!! especially bryan WONG. he's so muscular la. hahas.

BUT. i saw him smoking. wah sad la. my idol smokes. oh god. why did he have to smoke? if not he'll still be so perfect in my mind. hahas.

LEO looks so much better in person. damn damn damn damn DAMN CUTE lar.

hehe. he can act so well too! he very nice (:

today friday = slack day lar.

hahas. so fun.

tommorow going shopping! woo so exciting.

by the way, im going to thailand next week. anyone want anything? (:

2006-03-09T20:36:00.000+08:00

let me tell you a story about a fat bird and a thin bird.

true story wor.

today while waiting for huimin, i saw a fat bird and a thin bird at the side of the road. they did not seem afraid of humans. the two birds were under a tree, and the fat one was standing on the root of the tree, hardly moving. the thin one, however, was pecking around excitedly and looking for worms i guess. the thin one moved on to another place when it realised that place did not have the food it wanted. the fat one, remained there, till after a long time then walked over slowly to join its friend.

then my mother commented that the fat one going to die soon. cuz it didnt want to move mah.

so this shows that we should be enthusiastic in whatever we do. dont hesitate or wait for other people to initiate. YOU should be the one to initiate. if everyone thinks like this, no one would be the odd one out and no one would be feeling shy or embarrased. because we all step out as ONE, nobody hiding.

living our life is about seizing our opportunities. treasuring your own life, and those around you. if you choose to be more active, more optimistic. im sure our life would be more meaningful that way.

if we never try, how would we know we would succeed or not? you never know until you try. trusting each other is also important. (:

my blog is deserted! help!

2006-03-08T21:43:00.000+08:00

today is a super diao day.

got scolded by tiger cuz of LITHIUM. whatever. you suck man. i hate you.

alot of things happened today. i cant absorb it all right now. sometimes i just feel fate is going the wrong way. against me.

im really sorry. i cant start to say how much im sorry. ive done you bad again and again. i only can say sorry.

but in these circumstances, the only thing i can do is stand up bravely again, and walk on. so feed me the courage, make me persist on.

2006-03-07T20:34:00.000+08:00

haix.

today quite a sad day bah.

should be considered normal, but just feel quite sad lor.

HUIMIN shi ge hao ren. LOL. after talking to her i feel so much better.

does looks matter? seriously, it does. its an old topic so im not going to talk about it again. i know you all hear so many times also sian liao. i see more and more beautiful people nowadays. im turning green. hahas.

kinda sad cuz of my results again. hai. i wonder if there will be one day when i can be very happy cuz i PASS all my subjects. including AMATHS. i need a tuition teacher!!! FREE OF CHARGE!!! cuz i no money. hahas.

i realised i really must jiayou le. this term ending so never mind, but next term i have to work extra extra hard and concentrate on my studies liao. become a NERD. hahas. you will see a different yf then. a NERDY one. lol.

L1R5 - 13

actually ok la. cuz i got pulled up by my humanities.

eng(1) + lit(1) + chem(1) + combined humans.(1) + emaths(3) + physics (6) = 13

so.. still quite allright for a first attempt i think. but must improve my emaths and physics! then NO PROBLEM le! hahas.

but bio and amaths and physics must really jiayou. my tree worst subjects. JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!

im hiding behind a mask of happiness.

are you? hope you're not. (:

2006-03-06T20:48:00.000+08:00

yayy! today very very very happy!

except for some parts when some people pissed me off.

went to school with new hairstyle. quite alot of negative comments, ALOT kept silent, and only two positive comments. THANKEYOU. (:

today 2 km run also not bad. hehe.

history and ss rocks! 10 and 9 respectively! i got sticker! yayy! so happy lar. hahas.

also got through dance audition. even though second round then got through de. nvm. i shall work harder. hahas.

had fun today in school. everyday like that then good. hahas.

isnt it strange how two people can be bound by the same fate? almost the same of everything. it's strange, but its miraculous how things turn out to be.

but of course, no two people are completely alike. right?

hope that my future days are better. and my results will improve by alot. i need a lot of improvement. JIAYOU!

2006-03-02T20:59:00.000+08:00

whee~

today is an immensely PERFECT day for me. of course, i happy lar. (:

got quite good marks for hmt. 47. yayy!

then although amaths failed, but i IMPROVED! yayy yayy yayy yayy yayy!!!!!! from 6 to 15! big big jump! almost 10 marks eh! wah seh. happy till siao. ahahhas.

then dance had fun! learnt new steps then monday got audition. very scary.

hahas. tml got physics test. go study le. bye!

2006-03-01T21:36:00.000+08:00

i am QUITE happy today. keyword: quite.

happy is cuz i got very high for english! i thought it was vry high at first, then saw other people mark then i ...

i got 23. hehheheheheh

but i failed my bio prac test today la. im so dumb.

then nothing much eventful happened today le.

oh ya! today in the morning, yishun was battling bees. for honey. get it? bear wants honey. lol. no lar. our class got bees. so sad. then they were like poking at them with the broom handles while standing up on tables. FUNNY man.

i don like HER. she is somebody in my class and she sucks.

why does she get so good for every subject? she's not even SUPPOSED to be so clever la. kns. and she is such a FLIRT. flirts with every guy in our class. even though there are only 11. hate her hate her hate her. cant stand how she looks man. how she acts. simply just pisses me off.

argh. nvm. even shaun in better than her. actually i think shaun is a very nice person la. and i can see that he has really changed lar. maybe a bit only. but thats still change right? and i think we should all give him a chance and accept him for who he is lar. hes our classmate afterall. right?

very scare for amaths tommorow. dont want to fail argh. good luck for me. (:

2006-02-28T18:18:00.000+08:00

hmm. today considered quite a happy day? i dont really know.

got 22 half for physics. just passed. whew. and 32 for chem. whee! at first so happy, but saw so many people got higher then me.. then sad.. haix.

today i so guai. hahas. came home so early. earlier than 5!

dont know why im being so hyper. so NOT like me in my blog. totally different persona man. oh ya. ROY said some people failed their english. i hope im not anyone of them. otherwise i would really cry till siao.

tommorow i think getting back amaths too. oh god. please dont let me fail too badly. or i may just break out in tears in class.

realised that 01 spirit is still burning in me (:

but T1 spirit is passionate too! ((:

all the teachers are NICE. i like.

all my friends are nice too. hahas.

2006-02-27T20:27:00.000+08:00

yeah! today commontest finally over le! a whole week of torture is finally gone!

but sadness is overwheliming me again..

kanasai la.. LITHIUM really sucks! OMG. she didnt even want to give us back our commontest! say what. NO TIME. what the heck. give out only less than 5 mins right? that asshole lithium.

higher mother tongue shen so good... let us have time to revise. hahas. but after all, it IS his subject. right? XD

lit was.. fun? we presented. then.. FUNNY lar. people were laughing the whole way through. should be okay bah. i hope (:

haix. then commontest time.. hmt was okay.. hope i can pass with flying colours [even tho didnt know how to do a few qns] but physics totally suck! i only hope that my mcq can help me to pass..

and speaking of passing, there's one thing that i have failed.

my bio.

omg.

first time ive ever failed my science. then was damn shocked when i received my paper. i just sat there going 'omg'. haix. what's done is done. then after that siying still cry. cuz she failed too. but 1 mark higher than me. i got 14 half. ))))): i see her cry feel like crying too. haix. hope i don fail my amaths too badly. i dont wish to cry again in class.

before dance yufen had tummyache. then she better after that. hope you're okay now (: then had had some joy spreaded to me in M1. dont know why i go other classes i always end up feeling happy. hahas. especially T1. i just step inside and i feel happy le. hahas. =P

then after dance saw mr ng. NG YONG HENG. he so nice! he say got people in our class get less than 5 marks. oh god. i hope its not me. i asked him if it was, then he said dont think so. whew. oh ya. and he knows my name! i dont know why, but he knew! hahas. so happy. hes a very nice person.

more than often, setbacks and failures happen to all of us. ALL. everyone has their own flaws and no one is perfect. each person is unique and no two persons in this world are excatly the same.

we're just like fingerprints. all of us are different and special in our own way, for people to distinguish us from each other. but we do have a common shape, just like we have a common goal. and fingerprints are on our fingers. without fingers, there will be no fingerprints.

and fingers are like our friends. without our friends, we wouldnt exist. we need friends. we need support.

five fingers make up a hand. they are like different communities existing in our lives. family, friends, school, nation, and self. they must co-habit together so to maximise the usage of our 'hands'.

two hands can clap. but one cant. unless you slap yourself. the two hands balancing your life would have to familiarise with each other, and make yourself, a better person. know you're own mistakes, learn from your own failures, with each of the five fingers helping you in the way to push yourself up, and stand up from adversity.

start from anew. i cant stand up ; once again.

2006-02-24T21:15:00.000+08:00

ooo.

TGIF.

common test week almost over. whew.

im not going through the gruelling process of describing all my exmas. they're just too painful to think about. im just saying that im going to pray hard i dont fail my amaths and bio lar. PRAY.

recently very fun. 3T1 is becoming more and more enthu! i love us! hahas.

then today had the daimler chrysler thing. then 201 people stand together and cheer. okay lar. I cheered. it was fun!

class spirit rising le! so happy.

stood up to many teachers recently together. MOST of the class la. cant speak for the whole class. but as a whole, T1 is doing very well!

hahas. looking forward to monday with HARDBALLS! =D

2006-02-21T21:32:00.000+08:00

now is common test week. ahh. quite stressed now. just finished studying history and haven even start on amaths yet. oh no. going to die liao. AMATHS leh!

omg.

stress stress stress.

i just hope im not the last 10 this time can le.

when have ou heard me speak in terms of last? never right. this shows how scary my class is. everyone clever like sai lor. wah piang.

is not i dont like them, do not misunderstand. i love us lar.hahas.

HARDBALLS ROCK!

2006-02-18T20:04:00.000+08:00

hahas.

saturday today. went for competition at NUS. nothing much to say, it was quite dimunitive and worn-down. got kicked out during first round liao. so lan. whahahs. never mind. great experience man! we went with four sec 4 guys. hahas. then "escaped" during the public speaking part. =X

i feel.. that im kind of like a toy.

dont think dirty. i just feel that most of the time i do a lot of things, but no one seems to appreciate me.

it's like; everyone just takes me for granted, what i do, like it's my duty. i mean, im not asking for recognition or thanks or whatsoever, but i just dont like the feeling of being degraded. no one seems to really acknowledge my presence, or whatever i do.

if i do a good thing, it's what im supposed to do.
if i do a bad thing, then people will just start accusing me.

why isnt it like that for other people? is this called prejudice? is it because that person is regarded by more people as "kind-hearted" so that is why the things they do are an effort, and mine is simply seen as a chore.

seriously speaking, many people do take me for granted. i know im short, nice to bully, but sometimes, i just hope that people do know where to stop and not go overboard.

ive never said you couldnt vent your anger or frustrations on me, or if you simply just like to insult me. i never said you couldnt, and im knd of used to it already, but i just hope that you guys can understand that im human too, and i HAVE feelings. im not really a toy for you to do whatever you want.

i know im kind of like someone whom all of you can joke around with and have fun with, but i hope that the "me" in your eyes has more inner depth. i am emotional. but many people find this hard to believe.

i think im a good person, and i hope you would judge me fairly, and not take whatever i do for granted, simply because it's "yihfang's job". i just want to let you guys know that everything i do, it's not a chore for me, and i have taken the initaitive to do it so i find it enjoyable.

some people may disapprove of what i do. for the class, the council, the gang etc. but everything everyone does has a reason. and i have mine too, just like everyone else.

on a simple note, just wish that everyone can learn to be more appreciative of all that's around us.

and even if i don't get, i'll still continue to give. (: thank you.

2006-02-16T21:17:00.000+08:00

hahas. free today so shall post.

ytd went to discovery centre i forgot to mention. travis is cute! hahas. so cute lor. i think hes scared of us liao. hahas. i felt the most of the class, well, at least more than half of the 26 who went had bonded together le. hahas. so happy. =)))

was very fun even though only 4 guys + 22 girls. hahas.

then on the way back, we were singing kiddy songs. so FUN! hahas. i love 3T1-HARDBALLS! oh ya. i drew a "logo" of our class name. i think it's kinda cute la. hahas. very bright colours. maybe i shall post it here sometime.

today's lessons quite fun. just slack around. hahas.

after school got dance. wah. at first damn slack de. then after that have competition. see who can finish first. then in the end, cuz we have the most juniors, we were the last group. and we didnt even complete all the stations! damn malu la.

but nvm. then after that went to drink bubble tea. honeydew rocks!

but hardballs rock more! i love hardballs!

oh ya, this morning got 1 person looked so pissed off and upset. thought what happened to that person liao. but luckily later recover le. hahas. =)

YAYY! 3T1 HARDBALLS!

2006-02-15T21:19:00.000+08:00

hey! long time never post liao. hahas.

decided to slack away from homework for one day. but still very scared. common test coming!!!

scared i'll fail my exams. ah.

i really hate people who are fake and dont present the REAL them to me. if you dont like me, just say it directly to me instead of going around then come and shoot me. im more open and i'd rather much you tell me directly.

and i hate those who pretend to be good to you, but backstab you. i hate fakers.

2006-02-06T21:10:00.000+08:00

yayy! today no homework. so happy. hahas.

i shall talk about an analysis i made today during class. cuz mas was feeling sad.

lets imagine that the whole class is a palace. and the palace are full of butterflies. butterflies grow and shrink at different times of the day, depending on the events that occur. some butterflies grow rapidly, but only shrink a little, if not at all. other butterflies only grow and shrink a little bit, so they end up being almost the same size as they once were. however, the big butterflies have a difficulty in finding somewhere to stay. cuz its simply just too big. and the other butterflies dont really accept it, cuz its not the same as them. then, in the night, that particular butterfly would shrink. because it does not have the love from the rest of the butterflies. but in order to prevent the other butterflies from laughing at it, it forces itself to grow in the morning, to hide its sadness.

its the same as being in our class. its a very competitive community, but there are still many people in the class who are not really chiong-ing. there has to be something that each of us are good at. either we have not discovered it yet, or we do not know it, but other people do. and those who are really good at studies, they may not be good in something. its just that they do not show us that side of themselves.

so if given a choice, i would rather be a normal butterfly with lots of friends, instead of wallowing in sadness everyday.

whats your choice? =)

2006-01-29T21:37:00.000+08:00

hey.

im tired. hahas.

anyway, happy chinese new year! just online for a short while to check my inbox. its flooded! literally.

well, schoolwork has really kept me busy. not much time left for anything else. and couns stuff too! hahas. but i love it!

ok. guess thats all. i'll come back when i have the time! =D

2006-01-01T11:15:00.000+08:00

i guess i should say happy new year!

well, no offence qp, but sometimes, or should i say, most of the times after i read your blog, then i come to type a post, i will feel pretty depressed. dont know why. cuz maybe it seems like im being left out on alot of things bah. or maybe is because you seem so happy.

hahas. ok lar. dont think too much about it. its just a comment.

i just realised i need to give huimin her present also! but im not going with you on tue.. so you have to come and find me yourself. hahas.

later have to print out all my homework and prepare for school le. hahas. cuz tommorow going tiffany's house for couns things. ahahs. so no time.

i also want to meet with you all on tue. bleh. hahas.

actually, come to think of it, 3t1 people are okay i guess. cuz many of them are from 201, and i know all of them quite well.

but maybe its cuz i was planning on making more new friends next year. now it seems as though i will never get to know alot of people. like the people in [this year] 205, 206, 207. its abit... sad. cuz in my sec 1 and 2 years i was never close to their class people. and now probabaly i'll never be. thats sad... cuz i really want to widen my social circle. and this, huimin, is another proof. you're closer to 06 than me. you cant disagree. hahas

weini, can you come find me in 105 on tue? cuz i need to give you my homework, and we must find our seats! hahas. dont betray me and give my seat to someone else hor! hahas. then huimin come also la. then i give you your present. very big wor one of them. ahahs.

okay la. thats all i guess.

new year resolutions?

1. get very good results in all subjects
2. fulfil my secret ambition. hahhahahas. dont say hor huimin!!!
3. excel as a counscillor in both my class and in the council i.e participate actively in all activites
4. be a better dancer. i suck now.
5. make more new friends! =D

also, be happier.

2005-12-29T17:06:00.000+08:00

im in t1!!!!!! yayy v happy.

but then, haix

MY CLASS ONLY 9 GUYS!!!!!!!!!! how can that be?

its like, so unfair!!!!!!!!

im lazy to type out all the names. maybe i'll do that tommorow.

dance was exhausting. did gymnastics. very fun. but now my arms arre sighing with exhaustion. they feel like they're going to break like that.

argh. vlee taking p2. form teacher! why...

i want him to take t1!!!!!! hes such a damn good teacher to his form class lor! oh god. he purposely take meh's class is it. haix.

and its so unfair to kian min that he's the only 201 person in 3t2!!!!!!!!! thats so unfair to him!!!!!! omg

i.. duno how to describe.

i just know next year is going to be a long long loooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggg year.

i know for sure vlee not going to take t1 le. im sad lor. i dont know y how much my maths standard is going to drop next year. i only know it's alot. maybe i'll even be forced to drop amaths. who knows? my maths has been quite good in these 2 years because of vlee. now hes not teaching me anymore, im going to die.

lucky there are some people that are my good friends in t1.

like weini vivien enlin anis amirah and mas!

odd one out is me again. lol.

i really hope we get some really good teachers next year. then can help to pull up my grades. it doesnt help that im not going to be around on the firts week either. im going to miss out on introductions and bondings. and not to mention, lessons!

i sound like a nerd saying that, dont i?

t1 full of nerds. oh gosh. 9 guys. can you imagine?

its so so so so so unfair. argh. then t2 got more than half guys lor. why????

tommorow is another busy day for me. couns meeting in the morning and dance activity in the evening.

sometimes i think being beautiful really helps lor.
or maybe you're just pure lucky. good for you then. GOOD.

2005-12-26T13:17:00.000+08:00

merry christmas!

though actually i dont feel very merry. at all. seems like all of you had such a fun christmas. and mine? wah sian. then you all took neoprints somemore.. haix.. sad.. very sad...

feeling very sian now. haix.

not that i want to boast or anything, but i really think the gatherings that i organise are more fun. to me la, that is. i have attended gatherings by both other people and myself, and personally, i feel that my gatherings are more organised. but maybe you guys dont like organised.

its like, alot of things that i planned and i want to do during the gatherings or activities that some of you organise are always not accomplished. i also dont know why. and i dont seem to have that much fun.

maybe ive changed my way of thinking.

nowadays, i realised that im spending more time with the council, and with dance members. maybe the reason is we see each other more often bah. haix

201 has spent 2 years together.
6A1 also 2 years together.

no offence to anybody, i love 201 also, but i somehow feel that i would lose touch with 201 faster than 6A1. i mean, 6A1 people still meet up regularly. but i feel its not going to be the same way for me and inversers le. even though we are in the same school... but i feel its not going to be so easy keeping in touch anymore.

thats very sad eh.

haix. but thats only how i feel about it lar. i hope it wont come true. =) hopefully.

haix. i feel really sad.

it seems like im so detached from the world. it seems like everyone has done all the things that i wish to do, but they have done it without me. and i have not completed them.

i just realised testerday that in our whole gang, i was the only one who chose history.

im beginning to feel isolated again. how? i dont want to feel like this. i really dont want to.

but it seems im not really happy being with my friends anymore. its rare that i really smile and have fun with my friends.

im not not making an effort. its just... a feeling i guess.

haix.

it appears to me that im really alone lor. everyone has their own partner. and sometimes, i feel as though im really extra. especially with gang members. i feel really excluded. from you all. i cant seem to strike up a conversation that easily. and perhaps i have never been? i dont know. its just a really faint memory to me now.

i got to stop feeling so depressed. cuz the sec1s will be needing me to cheer them up on the first day of school too. okay?

give myself a pat on the back and stand up proud!
and, smile. :)