heartache. my heart abit pain. hahas. feel a little betrayed, a little hurt and alot confused. when i heard the news, my brain was like all gurgled up and in a whirl. i couldnt even think straight. but just as usual, crying helps. for me. i just cried all my sadness out, and i felt immediately better the other day. now i dont know what to know. she's not telling me anything anymore. instead im having to listen to other people. and people = more than one. im not angry or pissed off or hurt by her, it's by him that he would do such a thing to hurt me. i cant believe it, really. its just so hurting. and it also hurts me to know that im not close to THEM anymore. haix. ive said so much, but now i feel really empty inside. now i think of it, i dont have any BEST friend in this school. i dont have any best friend who regards me as one. all of us have made new friends, and it seems im the one who doesnt have any real good friends.
maybe anonymous has a point. maybe im such a sucker, and maybe even a bitch. i dont know. im afraid to know. but even if so, i wont know what to do either. i aint perfect and im never going to be. im just who i am, a simple average girl who likes to talk and chat, and wishes to have a lot of friends. close friends. a pity my last wish cant be fulfiled.
i dont blame anyone for not being close with me. i chose to distance myself away from them. as a matter of fact, it's not a choice for me either. it just happened. i dont know why too.
perhaps im such an idiot that i dont realise what's really going on around me. maybe im too self-absorbed and hao lian that i neglect other people. maybe im stuck-up. maybe i talk too much.
i think anonymous would agree with me.
and i would be surprised if he/she doesnt.
