hahas.
saturday today. went for competition at NUS. nothing much to say, it was quite dimunitive and worn-down. got kicked out during first round liao. so lan. whahahs. never mind. great experience man! we went with four sec 4 guys. hahas. then "escaped" during the public speaking part. =X
i feel.. that im kind of like a toy.
dont think dirty. i just feel that most of the time i do a lot of things, but no one seems to appreciate me.
it's like; everyone just takes me for granted, what i do, like it's my duty. i mean, im not asking for recognition or thanks or whatsoever, but i just dont like the feeling of being degraded. no one seems to really acknowledge my presence, or whatever i do.
if i do a good thing, it's what im supposed to do.
if i do a bad thing, then people will just start accusing me.
why isnt it like that for other people? is this called prejudice? is it because that person is regarded by more people as "kind-hearted" so that is why the things they do are an effort, and mine is simply seen as a chore.
seriously speaking, many people do take me for granted. i know im short, nice to bully, but sometimes, i just hope that people do know where to stop and not go overboard.
ive never said you couldnt vent your anger or frustrations on me, or if you simply just like to insult me. i never said you couldnt, and im knd of used to it already, but i just hope that you guys can understand that im human too, and i HAVE feelings. im not really a toy for you to do whatever you want.
i know im kind of like someone whom all of you can joke around with and have fun with, but i hope that the "me" in your eyes has more inner depth. i am emotional. but many people find this hard to believe.
i think im a good person, and i hope you would judge me fairly, and not take whatever i do for granted, simply because it's "yihfang's job". i just want to let you guys know that everything i do, it's not a chore for me, and i have taken the initaitive to do it so i find it enjoyable.
some people may disapprove of what i do. for the class, the council, the gang etc. but everything everyone does has a reason. and i have mine too, just like everyone else.
on a simple note, just wish that everyone can learn to be more appreciative of all that's around us.
and even if i don't get, i'll still continue to give. (: thank you.
