merry christmas!
though actually i dont feel very merry. at all. seems like all of you had such a fun christmas. and mine? wah sian. then you all took neoprints somemore.. haix.. sad.. very sad...
feeling very sian now. haix.
not that i want to boast or anything, but i really think the gatherings that i organise are more fun. to me la, that is. i have attended gatherings by both other people and myself, and personally, i feel that my gatherings are more organised. but maybe you guys dont like organised.
its like, alot of things that i planned and i want to do during the gatherings or activities that some of you organise are always not accomplished. i also dont know why. and i dont seem to have that much fun.
maybe ive changed my way of thinking.
nowadays, i realised that im spending more time with the council, and with dance members. maybe the reason is we see each other more often bah. haix
201 has spent 2 years together.
6A1 also 2 years together.
no offence to anybody, i love 201 also, but i somehow feel that i would lose touch with 201 faster than 6A1. i mean, 6A1 people still meet up regularly. but i feel its not going to be the same way for me and inversers le. even though we are in the same school... but i feel its not going to be so easy keeping in touch anymore.
thats very sad eh.
haix. but thats only how i feel about it lar. i hope it wont come true. =) hopefully.
haix. i feel really sad.
it seems like im so detached from the world. it seems like everyone has done all the things that i wish to do, but they have done it without me. and i have not completed them.
i just realised testerday that in our whole gang, i was the only one who chose history.
im beginning to feel isolated again. how? i dont want to feel like this. i really dont want to.
but it seems im not really happy being with my friends anymore. its rare that i really smile and have fun with my friends.
im not not making an effort. its just... a feeling i guess.
haix.
it appears to me that im really alone lor. everyone has their own partner. and sometimes, i feel as though im really extra. especially with gang members. i feel really excluded. from you all. i cant seem to strike up a conversation that easily. and perhaps i have never been? i dont know. its just a really faint memory to me now.
i got to stop feeling so depressed. cuz the sec1s will be needing me to cheer them up on the first day of school too. okay?
give myself a pat on the back and stand up proud!
and, smile. :)
