ok. since you all dont like me posting such "chim" posts, i am posting pure crap. crap. nothing-ness. stupid idiotic nonsense. since you all prefer that..
went to change my specs today. its made of titanium, the metal used to make airplane bodies, and its purple. dark purple. im utterly shocked to find that my degree has increased! omg. 25 in one eye and 50 in the other. i feel so sad.. but machine eye-testing often not accurate one arh. hahas. then shape of the lens in kind of rectangular and tilting up i guess. forgot what you call that shape le.
but the good thing is, they had it done in half an hour. very fast and efficient.
its kind of nice i guess.
yong kong sms-ed me today to ask me if i wanted to go nick's house. haix.. very sad. CANNOT GO!!! awrgh. T_T its on tues. then cuz that wk i going out 4 out of 5 days le. so mum dont let. haix.. very very sad. cannot go nick's house and play.. haix.
meeting up with counscillors tommorow before proceeding to school for the bus to take us to shatec for the dining etiquette thing. must go take neos!
feel quite sad now. have an urge to discuss something. maybe you would say "chim". whatever. if you dont want to read then dont.
haix. i feel so detached from the world now. like a piece of wrongly made jigsaw that just doesnt fit in quite right. i also dont know why. haix.
also nobody to really chat with me over such things.
maybe its i dont wish to reveal these things. i just want people to view me as someone whom they can entrust with their tasks, and someone who can deal. i dont wish to appear like somebody who is weak in front of my friends. thats perhaps why you always see me laughing and joking around, looking so amicable and happy.
i think, the moods of those around you really affect how you feel. take, for example, the day when we got back most of our exam results. most of you were so unhappy and isolating us, those who had scored remotely well. and although we should feel happy, your isolation and indifference towards us made us feel really sad.
doesnt everyone want to get good results? arent people supposed to be happy for their friends, and not shun them just because they did something better than you? i know jealousy is a hard emotion to restrain. but we are your friends. are you going to ignore us just because we did better than you? thats really unfair.
i know nothing is fair, but please put yourself in our shoes. if you were the one who got good results, would you be happy even when your friends shunted you to one side? well, thats how we felt.
we should initially feel elated, but because of your attitudes towards us, we felt the complete opposite. im not saying i would have reacted so well if i were in your shoes, but i felt that what you all did was not right. i dont know how you feel. you can tell me of course. then maybe i will understand a bit more in depth.
and also, i feel i should also address this issue. you all know when you feel you've flunked an exam, and those who are brilliant come to tell you they've completely failed? the less clver people will feel worse. understand me? ya..
haix. talked too much about this already. k la. tata~