argh. i am insatisfied. with my english results.
got back a lot of results today la. first, is hmt. was okay. got 51.5 over 70 for paper1, and 78 over 110 for paper2. then mrs lim asked how many of us want to continue to take hmt. then i raised. then she said : most of the people who raised their hands are elligible, except for 1 or 2. woah sad. then qp and jas say they saw my marks: b3. jiali say a2. ahh...i want a2 leh..if just b3 i dont want to take lor..stress.. i want an A!!
science period was used for going through hmt paper2.
some spent recess criticising marker of paper1.
maths! vlee..wasnt there. was quite disappointed cause cannot know my marks. but also quite relieved cause scared i will get very poor results. then it was used again for hmt
演说. played during literature. so fun!!!
then got back goegraphy paper. was a disaster man. i got 65 over 100! omg. so damn low lor. b3. kns la.
english paper was worse. im sure many of you wont understand how i feel la. you all would probably say i am suan-ing you all, but im not. yes, i got an A2. 73. but as i said, i am not satisfied. AT ALL. do you know why?
1. i should have gotten an A1. i have faith in myself. so why didnt i get? i deserved it, based on my abilities. anis too.
2. this time, there are 13 A2s. 13, for gods sake. 13!!!! and most of them arent even supposed to get As anyway. not that im suan-ing them or what. but its the truth. i really dont know why they can get an A. its so ridiculous.
not that im conceited, but english IS MY BEST SUBJECT, and ive always been proud of my english grads. but this time, so many people are getting roughly the same marks as me. some who dont even deserve the marks. as i said, i dont know why they got an A. i should be one of the privileged few getting As. but since so many people have As, im being demoted to one of the common people. WHAT IS THIS? FOR GOODNESS SAKE. I DETEST IT!
many of you would probably think im trying to chide you all. know something? im really not lor. im really just insatisfied. i got an A2 while others got higher than me? what is this? i should at least be same as them what! i really dont know what to say lor. how do you study for english btw? thats why i dont understand how these people can improve by SO DAMN MUCH in such a short time cause you cant study for english! i feel so depressed lor. i actually lost to so many people in my ENGLISH. ENGLISH. IM SAD LOR. VERY VERY SAD.
then we saw vlee in the canteen. dont know who suggested to look for him for our marks. but we did la. he at first say i get 68.5. still okay la. i thought. not that bad. then later he say he bluff some of us. diao! then i asked him. means we get higher than that la? he replied: of course la! [insert maniac laughter]. so..still got hope in getting A!
i dont know why, but im doing badly in the subjects that i expceted myself to do quite well. english, geography, chem.
im however doing quite well for the subjects i dont really think i have.
physics, hmt, maths.
tommorow checking of all three science papers. im very anxious. dont want to get back my chemistry. i have a sixth sense that i have done badly. why? i also dont know. just have a feeling la. anyway, good luck! dont cry tommorow!
p.s. i didnt mean to offend anybody in my post. im just venting my anger. dont take offence kay? =)
